A dreary night

Well tonight is err , well I had better nights before. I mean the best night's before. Tonight isn't really my night la. Why? Well err let's put it this way. It's because of this guy >>>> AMMARFIQRY.

Firstly , Manchester United lost to Liverpool in a game which United conquered most of the 90 mins of the game. That made me even more frustated. Adehh. So I was like kinda emotional -.- But she was there , despite she hates Manchester United soo damn much , she's still there to comfort me eventhough she was absolutely happy that United lost. She put her happiness aside just to comfort me. I mean , come one laa she texted me with veryveryvery sweet text , she even posted on my wall. How sweet is that kan? Hmm.

Later on after watching football , I was at home when she told me that I could call her. Well I need her , veryy much! More than my ego self should've knew! I said later! Bodoh kan? I felt like a loser. Jual mahal ni memang makan diri kan? Haa padan lah muka kau Mar. Later that night we called , well I wasn't really myself. Kesian dia tau. She tried to fix things for me , how sweet is she kan? Yeaa , I'm lucky I know. Dia layan aku elok-elok walaupun aku buat perangai sial aku! Dia sabar je layan aku tapi aku pergiiii spoil kan -.- Great Marr , great!

Well tak perlu lah kan tahu apa we both talked about kan. Tapi last sekali memang buat aku risau kan dia , susah la nak tidur. Jujur lah wehh , aku ni memang susah tidur tau? Kalau ikutkan , dekat berapa kali pusing-pusing pun belum tentu tidur lagi. But for the past nights , she was by myside , all the time. And honestly , right after we hung up and one simple text , I straight away went to sleep. Sometimes I even smile myself to sleep. Well tonight ,  err hmm it's just isn't our night lah. Well this things happen kan? It's just a matter of how those two persons handle them. And I know with her by myside , we can handle anything together.

Aduii rindu sangat kat dia :( She's sound asleep for now I guess. She has to wake up early tomorrow to pack her things and help her mum prepare her spaghetti tomorrow and she'll be travelling from Kuantan to Shah Alam tomorrow. She needs all the rest she can get. I just miss her so much :( Wak , saya  rindu awak sangat! Ammar rindukan Yana sangat :( Hmm. Dah laa , nak pergi pusing-pusing atas katil ni. Before that ,

Haa cantik kan yg kanan ni? Dia buat muka gila pun cantik kan? Dia tanya saya kalau dia tak cantik , saya sayang dia tak? Comel kan soalan dia? Hehe. Senang je jawapan tu , ' Saya sayang awak sangatsangat and that makes you beautiful no matter what happens. You're beautiful forever '.

Haa paham tak my last sentence tu wak? Hehe. Lafchuu <3

Versus

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5 lawan saya seorang. Eleh! Takda hal lah! Bak datang la weh!

The untold now be told :p

Well , several months ago. She came to my life as err as apa ya? Err as a person who approaches me in a different way like others. Why? Haha. Funny thing about that , normally when you first approach a person or getting to know them is by saying hai , hello or assalamualaikum lah kan? Well this one was different. It changed my life when she im'ed me at fb asking me to sing for her! Haha! Okay that really shocked me and I thought ' Eh , apahal dia ni tetiba suruh aku nyanyi pulak kan? ' Haha. At that very moment , my life started to change.

We contacted often during that time. Well I was on my semester break and she was still in college. I barely on my fb acc but after that moment , every night it's a must. IDK why? She kinda attracts me , she made me felt comfortable , she makes me happy , she was fun and we had a lot of topics to talk. Well when a topic is finished , another topic just came dropping by. Haha! I rarely talk a lot with people I just knew. But with her , I just can't stop! That must annoy her. But not , she listens to me , all the time. Even if i'm talking nonsense. She was there.

Well we got to know each other more day by day. I felt happy during those times. I felt lonely before but when she came , she definitely light up my world. My phone wasn't used in ages. My friends even used my phone to call anyone they desire because of the credits I have -.- I don't really prefer texting but with her , I need too! Haha. As days passed by , I seemed to like her , a lot! But there's a little problem. She's my bestfriend's girlfriend! Wtf Mar?? One night I asked her about her and her boyfriend whether they're doing well or not. She said they broke up. I was shocked! Despite liking her , I loved seeing both of them together. So I tried to get them back together. I listened to her story. She was quite okay with it. We voice called on skype. Until she received a text from her ex. She was like err devastated. She cried. I panicked. So I tried to calm her down. I'm also worried as her final exams are just around the corner. So I sang to her :"/ that was the first time I ever sang for a person. Gladly that calmed her down laa :)

As days passed we got closer and I'm starting to like her more. And even sayang :O I kept it to myself , I think it's still to early. Eventhough I thought that she might like me too :p but I was not sure. Until one peculiar night she said she wanted me to leave her alone and never contact her , EVER. IDK why but I just can't lose her. I felt like the light that has been lighting up my days now was about to blow out. So I randomly confessed to her that I liked her. My heart was pounding. But till now , I never regret doing that silly and humiliating confession. Forever.

After the confession , we became closer. Oh yeah , she decided not to ask me to leave. Good! Hehe. So as days passed , I liked her more. And she also likes me too! Wooo! Haha. Then I can't recall when but she said those three words. Iloveyou. Oh sh*t! My heart was pounding fast! IDK what to say. Those three words means a lot to me , a lot! I was afraid. But I decided to be honest with her. I knew it would hurt her but if I lied , it would hurt her more. But she kept on saying those words and she did'nt force me to say back. That made me realise that I started to really love her. On another peculiar night , I said those three words , sincerely ofcourse! I thought about it a few times and decided , I am ready. Her reaction was like she's the happiest person on earth! I felt touched because I felt appreciated! Hehe.

Well , till now we're having ups and downs that not all people have. It's more than one time I was about to lose her. There're a lot of obstructions on our way making us happen. Well we had troubles. A lot of trouble! Well not trouble , it was like err things stopping us from being together. Well , there's this one time when she was not really okay about my histories with my ex's. She can't bare that she's not the first at some things. Another thing was she did'nt trust me a 100%. She thought I was a sweet talker and a playboy! I almost lost her that time too. And this one dreadful moment when she found out that I was lying to her about my SPM results. Well yeaa , those are the things stopping us from making us happen. But that did't stop me from loving her. That did'nt make me give up to win her back. I will not stop treating her like she's my life and I won't stop loving her even If she's confirmed mine!

Well despite those things , I just can't lose her. I love her with all my heart. I understand her way a lot. She might not be the one who can calm people down , she might not be the one who can comfort people down. She might get people to be mad or bored of her because of her attitudes. Well FYI , she's the one who can calm me down with her own ways , she can comfort me when I'm down , in her own ways. I'm not mad at her when she loses her temper , I'm not bored of her attitude , I just know that I need to be there with her , all the time insyaAllah. I just love her the way she is

People can't see who she really is. Well thanks to Him , I can. I am made for you NurLiyanaAmiraMohdZainal.Lafchu hunny :)

Comel kan dia? Dia kata tak! Takda taste la dia kalau dia kata ni tak comel kan? Ehhh! Tapi high class pulak taste dia pilih saya? :P Poyo kan? Ahh kisah apa , poyopoyo ni lah yg dia sayang! :')

Stings in life

Pernah tak hampa semua kena tuduh tak pasai-pasai sampai membuatkan org terapat dgn hang meragui hang? Pernah tak? Aku pernah wehhh , sakit la cte dia!

I don't know why this girl , better not mention her name lah kan. Tak elok mengaibkan orang. Well she's my primary school mate lahh. Well IDK her much lahh , I mean not so close with her lahh. We never talked pun before! Err rasanya lah sebab tak igt pun pernah ckp dgn dia -.- Err she accussed me of being a playboy? Wtf wehhh? Ehh kalau aku boleh kumpul semua orang yg pernah aku kenal or even spoke too dari aku mula hidup dulu! Aku panggil la wehh , tunjuk sikit mana bukti aku ni playboy? Kau tanya lah sorang-sorang , ada ke aku main kan perasaan dorg? Maybe kutuk or ejek tu ada lahh , sebab I admit I'm very naughty when I was younger. I like to hurt people by teasing them. I was very naughty. But se naughty aku ni pun , perasaan orang pasal sayang ke cinta ke suka ke , I never played with such feelings laa. I don't want to! Life is like a wheel laa kan? What goes around comes around. So taknak lah aku main kan perasaan org mcm tu. Nanti kena kat aku , kan naya!

Yg this girl ni pulak accuse aku playboy? Aih? Tegur kau depan-depan pun aku tak pernah! Social networking , I added this girl lah kan. Ala mcm aku add dia sorang? Dah aku add kau , sebab tu ke kau tuduh aku suka kau? Ckp thank you pun aku ni perasan kau suka aku? Being nice isn't flirting laa wehh , come one laa wehh. Puh-leaseeeee! Haa kan dah keluaq gedik aku. Eyy tolong la , if you want to know. INEVERLIKED YOU BEFORE! Sorry lah if you thought I liked you , the fact is. NOOOOOOO! Siapa yg perasan sekarang ni haa? Aduiii kau ni. Sebab kau lahh mood aku yg teramat happy because of coming home and I get to see her soon , mood aku tu pecah mcm tu je sebab kan kau! Kau dah la buat mak aku sedih! Thank you soo muchh. If you hate me pun , don't lah make bad stories about me boleh? Keep it to yourself laa , I did'nt do anything wrong towards you pun? Tak tahu la kalau ada ter buat kan? If that's so , I'm sorry. Takda niat pun.

Am I a sweet talker? IDK about that. Some people might like being a sweet talker. Well I'm not. It'll be hard for people to believe you eventhough you said it straight from your heart. I never intended to say anything to make people fall for me or err cair or err alaa yg seangkatan dgnnya lah! Hmm never intended that pun. IDK? Tak suka lahh ada bakat nak ckp sweet sweet ni. Cehhh. Haha Poyo gila tu doh! Haha. But seriously , tak suka. Sebab apa yg kita ikhlas cakap , susah org nak percaya. Saya pun tak tahu lahh. Redha je lahh dgn nasib ni. Banyakkan bersabar Ammar :)

Lesson learnt :

1. Don't simply accuse people

2. Becareful of your words after this Ammar

3. Be strong if people accuse you , you know the truth kan? So it's the right thing to do

4. Do not hate people , cause you might accuse them. Haha!

5. Be more patient Mar , this things happen in life

6. Be brave to say the truth tau!

7. Forgive people 0:)

8. Choose the right friends

For You :)

HK

Okayyy basically this post is about my trip to Hong Kong :) Kalau ada terlebih cakap pasal dia , ahhh biar lah! You should expect that! Hehe.

Okayyy I went to HK with familiaa last holiday. It was on the 26th of dec 2011. We need to wake up early in the morning because our flight is early. She woke up quite early lah that morning because of me :') After we checked-in our baggages. We had breakfast. Err Ayah and Imran ordered the foods. Me? Well doing something more important. Haha. OTP wehhh , with dia lahh :) and I excused myself kejap , konon toilet. Haha. She asked me to call kot , so call lah! Peluang wehh , Haha. Then we I rejoined my family Ma said , ' Amboii , call GF la tu '. Haha Mama Mama. Ayah said , ' Bagi pesanan terakhir sebelum berangkat lah tu '. Saya yg sedang malu diam kan diri. Haha. Then straight after that we nak pergi boarding lah. I called her. Hmm only He knows how hard for me to leave her for 5 days. 5 days je? Lama sangat tu! :'(( Then it's time for me to go. Before I switched off my phone I gave her one last text. Then :'(

On the plane I slept most of the journey. Then we arrived safely. It was cold there , winter! Ada pulak amoi ni pakai skirt? Gila apa -.- Then after dah keluar semua , amek beg semua. I on my phone to check whether there is signal ke tak. Ada! Tapi ape tah nama dia -.- I texted her that I've arrived at HK because dia pesan! She replied! That made me smile. Hehe. Then we went back to the hotel in a bus. A big bus but there's only 6 of us! Haha. HK is magnifico! Beautiful tall buildings! On the bus Ma asked me is there line for my phone? Err I said IDK. Ma said , ' Kalau nak call sesiapa , pakai lah phone Mama'. I knew what she meant. Haha. Then straight after we checked in at our hotel , called the Park hotel. We straight head to the Tram. We went there by MTR. LRT HK lah tu. Haha. Convenient kot! Than we board the tram to the top hill of err ada lah hill kat HK tu. It was cold and it was already night. First we have our dinner at Bubbagump. Sedap! Makan fish and chips. And the restaurant was awesome! Romantic kot! That reminded me of her :( A lot of couples there. Kabut je! Then we went to the top. The view there was veryveryveryvery overwhelming! Lawa gila weh! We couuld see the whole HK! It was beautiful! We took pictures laa. It was very cold! Brrrrrrr! Then ada satu corner ni mcm ada big size  heart shape. Dekat situ ada tempat untuk hang love cards. Ahhh!!!!! Yana!!!!! :'( That made me determined to bring her at this same exact place in the future. Hehe. iA :) After snapping some pictures , we went back to the hotel. Penat kan. We rented 3 rooms. One room is Ma and Mira's. One for Imran and Haziq's and one for me and Ayah. Before I slept. I took my phone and look at her pictures. Hmm I miss her soo much. Tak sampai satu hari pun lagi. I slept eventhough it's hard for me , penat.

The next morning I checked my phone and I received a text from her. I was sooooo happy! :'D I read her text , uuuuuu. She's miserable. That made me so worried so I texted her back. Hmm I was so happy because err alaaa only me and her could understand. But I 'm also worried because she's soo sad. I prayed to Him to make me and her stronger. Later that day we went on a tour around HK. First we sailed on a ferry. Ada kami je! Oh and one old lady. Haha. We took a lot of pictures there. I pretended mcm titanic with Haziq. Haha. But in my mind is.. yes you guessed it alright. Haziq started to become sea sick. Haha. Apa laah budak ni. After we ported back , me and Ayah went to the pharmacy to buy Haziq his medicine. Ayah asked the pharmacist there for help. Hmm a pharmacist. Imissyou :( later on we hopped on a tour bus. Mcm double decker kat UK tu! Haa. Then terbayang pulak , insyaAllah ada rezeki saya dgn dia belajar sana , kita naik bus ni sama. Hehe. Then we wnt on a tour around HK. Until we arrived at this one place that's very beautiful. The beach with all the mountains there were superb! Wow! If she's here with me enjoying this view kan best. Saya duduk sorang je pun :/ Then we stopped at a place called Stanley market. Kat situ banyak gila anjing! Err tapi pets la. Tapi seriously the dogs were very cute! And some of them're beautiful! Lain mcm anjing Malaysia ni -.- After we ate at McD , only fries and fillet , haha. We went on the bus semula and went to a place to ride a sampan. Sampan modern kot? Haha. And the driver , err driver ke? Haa lantak lahh , nyonya tua kot! Haha. Dia siap bebel kat Ayah because Ayah sat near to her. Haha. After the sampan ride. The bus stopped at the terminal and we dropped off. Pergi lah satu tempat ni by the sea. Ada starbucks. So we all ordered hot drinks. After that we hopped on the tour bus again for the night tour. But there's not much thing to tell. Tak da apa sangat pun tour tu -.- Then we went back to the hotel to rest. Penat lah jugakk kan. Oh and she's supposed to go for a BBQ this night with her friends. I hope she's doing fine and she'll remember me always. But something ain't right that night. I felt something weird. Hmm , maybe because I missed her again kot? All the time kot mar? Err maybe nak tidur ni lagi rasa? Maybe. So I looked at her pictures and went to bed.

The next day we went to disney land! I woke up and received this weird text from her. I was err quite nervous and confused. Why? Err that made me felt err NOT okayy. I texted back lahh to make things better I hope :( So we went to disney land by bus. I slept all the way. Well I'm not 100% okayy :/ We arrived there and the place is err gempak! Hehe. Very nice place. Firstly we went to watch a Lion King show. It was like a musical theater. It was good , very good! And ada part si Simba dgn apa awek dia? Haa Nala tu mcm ada love scene , it was soo sweet. Yanaaaaa :( Ala singa ni pun boleh buat aku jelous? Teruk naa aku ni -.- then after the show we went to Trazan's house , then a boat ride. There's and old phillipines lady sitting next to me on the boat. And our guide was like scaring us lah kan kononnya. Ala tempat budak-budak kan? But this old lady was terrified! Haha! That's funny? Not yet. She hold my arms , hide behind my back , holding me and screaming. Urghh orang tua ni! Lek aa? Kalau ada Yana ni , kena dah orang tua ni. Haha. After that we went to Toy Story land. There are extreme rides there. So we queed up. Panjang gila weh! Then ada satu ride ni , me  , Imran and Mira were queing , tetiba je fire alarm bunyi! Bengong! Lepas tu kena blah -.- penat je beratur panjang! Dgn jelous lagi tgk couples ni kan? Haha. Then Ma asked me to guide to a show Haziq wants to see. I gave a wrong direction so we missed the show :O the map is so confusing. Ma bebel laa cakap tak boleh harap and all that. Memang terasa lah kan cite dia. That moment I screamed in my heart. Yana mana? Nak yana! Hmm pathetic ke? Tak! Saya memang nak dia setiap masa , tapi ni dah sampai tahap kena jerit dalam hati. Nanti ada pulak tahap jerit kuat-kuat. Sebab mmg I need her. Then I kept quiet lahh. After that we went on some other rides till it was almost night. So we went to the gift shop first to wait for a fireworks show later on. I bought la some souveniers for me kan , and ofcourse her too. Ayah even helped me to pick one for her. And it was quite sweet! Quite? Sweet weh! Hebat Ayah ni. Haha. When I was walking in the shop suddenly I smelled something. It came from a local woman , kot? It smelled like her scent! Pfttt! Only god knows how I felt that time. Terus tekad nak call dia malam ni. Rindu sangat ni! Parah dah ni. Haa banyak ni haa ni. Hehe. Then after shopping for souveniers we enjoyed the fireworks show. It was beautiful. Again , how I wish you were here with me sayang. Then we went back to the hotel. Soo happy! Can't wait to call her and tell her about the local lady tadi. Right after I entered my room , I received this scary and weird text. Ahhhh! It cannot be! Why? :'( I quickly went to Ma's room and asked for her phone. Ma bagi lah. Terus call , and we had a problem. Aduiii! Hmm what is it? Biar lahh kitaorg je tahu. Okay that bumped me :( I was so down. I did'nt eat my dinner pun. I looked at her pictures and I was soo sad :'( I slept , tak sedar pun.

The next morning I woke up and checked my phone. I received a very relieving text. It's from her also. I smiled when she texted. I was so relieved eventhough I'm not sure what'll happen. Then I wanted to reply and no credit!! Pftttt! On the bus to Ocean Island I sat next to Mira and asked her to borrow her phone to text Yana. Dia tak kasi pulak! Eyyyyy budak ni. Then she teached me to redeem reward points. So after that I can text her and I did. Then we arrived at Ocean Park. There's this one couple followed us on this tour. Bengang je tengok , nak sweet sweet pulak! Eyyy aku dgn Yana lagi hebat lah! Then we entered Ocean Park. First we ride the cable car to the other side of the park. Gempak en? Ada dua park dalam satu. Naik cable car pulak! And in the cable car the view was veryyyy beautiful. Terbaik kot! After we arrived at the other side terus naik ride rapid tu satu family! Hehe. It was fun :) Then me , Mira and Imran went to other rides while Ma Ayah and Haziq went to other rides. Hmm I wished Yana is here. Boleh naik sama dgn dia. Beratur again , panjang gila! Banyak la masa nak berangan. Haha. Berangan apa? Naik ride dgn Yana laa? Hehe. Then naik ride ni dia panggil Hair Raiser. Terbaik kot! Haha. Then naik lagi satu ride ni , apa tah nama dia. Terbaik jugak! Tapi yg tak best tgk couples naik sama ni yg tak tahan -.- Korang tunggu lah! Then tgk ada dolphin and sea lion show. Style doh! Haha. Then kena balik terus because takut tinggal bus. Hmmpph tak puas. Later that night we had our dinner at a restaurant. Pakistan. Halal la. Rice! After 4 days without rice , finally! Hehe. Later on we went shopping la for souveniers. Tgk-tgk Imran beli beats and Ma beli handbag. Haha. Takpe lah :) Then ada satu shopping centre ni called ' Miramar' ! Hehe. Suruh Ayah amek gambar. Dorg pikir saya dgn Mira ke? Haha. Saya tak :P Why is her name first? Oh because I put her needs before mine la? Hehe. Oh and tak sedap kalau Marmira. Haha. We passed by an Adidas store and urghh Messi -.- But this time I'm quite happy to see him because I know he can make her happy. Urghh imisshermore! Then we bought souveniers. I bought for myself , my friends and her ofcourse. There's this one scarf that I knew that she would love because it's like leopard skin. Hehe. But it's too small for a tudung so I did'nt buy it :S Later that night we went back to the hotel. I slept early because I was tired. But still! Her pictures first. Hehe. While I was sleeping , I felt something's not right. I woke up around 1 a.m lah rasanya. I felt err IDK berdebar. I texted her and she replied! We texted again and then I reached my limits to redeem my reward points. Memang kena maki lah maxis kan? Aku tgk text dgn dia ni , dia tgh mcm tak okay kau buat hal! Haih. Mesti dia pikir apa tah kan? Haih. Then again I looked at her pictures and slept.

The next morning we packed and ready to leave HK. It was quite sad to lave this place but still sooooooooooooooo happy to go home and to contact her! Hehe. I was with Ayah and Haziq while the others went shopping with ma. So we waited at the waiting area before boarding. It was time to board but Ma Mira and Imran is still not here. Pfttt. Then the gate was almost closed. Finally they're here. Haihhh. Then before switching of my phone I texted her. In the plane I could'nt sleep. Soo happy! Hehe. Then lalu pulak atas Kuantan! Nak je aku terjun! Boleh buat surprise utk dia kan? Hehe. Then we safely arrived. After settling all the things we took a taxi and head to Wan's house. I texted her then :) Later that night we were suppose to cut short our conversation OTP kan. Haha. But penyudahnyaa. Hehe. Well if you guys want to know , that's me and her :')

That's all about my trip to HK. Thankyou so much Ma and Ayah for bringing me and my siblings to HK. I love you guys soooooo much! Thanks to Imran Mira and Haziq for making this holiday fun. Love you guys! And thanks to Yana for becoming strong and wait for me. Iloveyou sayang :)