Well , several months ago. She came to my life as err as apa ya? Err as a person who approaches me in a different way like others. Why? Haha. Funny thing about that , normally when you first approach a person or getting to know them is by saying hai , hello or assalamualaikum lah kan? Well this one was different. It changed my life when she im'ed me at fb asking me to sing for her! Haha! Okay that really shocked me and I thought ' Eh , apahal dia ni tetiba suruh aku nyanyi pulak kan? ' Haha. At that very moment , my life started to change.
We contacted often during that time. Well I was on my semester break and she was still in college. I barely on my fb acc but after that moment , every night it's a must. IDK why? She kinda attracts me , she made me felt comfortable , she makes me happy , she was fun and we had a lot of topics to talk. Well when a topic is finished , another topic just came dropping by. Haha! I rarely talk a lot with people I just knew. But with her , I just can't stop! That must annoy her. But not , she listens to me , all the time. Even if i'm talking nonsense. She was there.
Well we got to know each other more day by day. I felt happy during those times. I felt lonely before but when she came , she definitely light up my world. My phone wasn't used in ages. My friends even used my phone to call anyone they desire because of the credits I have -.- I don't really prefer texting but with her , I need too! Haha. As days passed by , I seemed to like her , a lot! But there's a little problem. She's my bestfriend's girlfriend! Wtf Mar?? One night I asked her about her and her boyfriend whether they're doing well or not. She said they broke up. I was shocked! Despite liking her , I loved seeing both of them together. So I tried to get them back together. I listened to her story. She was quite okay with it. We voice called on skype. Until she received a text from her ex. She was like err devastated. She cried. I panicked. So I tried to calm her down. I'm also worried as her final exams are just around the corner. So I sang to her :"/ that was the first time I ever sang for a person. Gladly that calmed her down laa :)
As days passed we got closer and I'm starting to like her more. And even sayang :O I kept it to myself , I think it's still to early. Eventhough I thought that she might like me too :p but I was not sure. Until one peculiar night she said she wanted me to leave her alone and never contact her , EVER. IDK why but I just can't lose her. I felt like the light that has been lighting up my days now was about to blow out. So I randomly confessed to her that I liked her. My heart was pounding. But till now , I never regret doing that silly and humiliating confession. Forever.
After the confession , we became closer. Oh yeah , she decided not to ask me to leave. Good! Hehe. So as days passed , I liked her more. And she also likes me too! Wooo! Haha. Then I can't recall when but she said those three words. Iloveyou. Oh sh*t! My heart was pounding fast! IDK what to say. Those three words means a lot to me , a lot! I was afraid. But I decided to be honest with her. I knew it would hurt her but if I lied , it would hurt her more. But she kept on saying those words and she did'nt force me to say back. That made me realise that I started to really love her. On another peculiar night , I said those three words , sincerely ofcourse! I thought about it a few times and decided , I am ready. Her reaction was like she's the happiest person on earth! I felt touched because I felt appreciated! Hehe.
Well , till now we're having ups and downs that not all people have. It's more than one time I was about to lose her. There're a lot of obstructions on our way making us happen. Well we had troubles. A lot of trouble! Well not trouble , it was like err things stopping us from being together. Well , there's this one time when she was not really okay about my histories with my ex's. She can't bare that she's not the first at some things. Another thing was she did'nt trust me a 100%. She thought I was a sweet talker and a playboy! I almost lost her that time too. And this one dreadful moment when she found out that I was lying to her about my SPM results. Well yeaa , those are the things stopping us from making us happen. But that did't stop me from loving her. That did'nt make me give up to win her back. I will not stop treating her like she's my life and I won't stop loving her even If she's confirmed mine!
Well despite those things , I just can't lose her. I love her with all my heart. I understand her way a lot. She might not be the one who can calm people down , she might not be the one who can comfort people down. She might get people to be mad or bored of her because of her attitudes. Well FYI , she's the one who can calm me down with her own ways , she can comfort me when I'm down , in her own ways. I'm not mad at her when she loses her temper , I'm not bored of her attitude , I just know that I need to be there with her , all the time insyaAllah. I just love her the way she is
People can't see who she really is. Well thanks to Him , I can. I am made for you NurLiyanaAmiraMohdZainal.Lafchu hunny :)
Comel kan dia? Dia kata tak! Takda taste la dia kalau dia kata ni tak comel kan? Ehhh! Tapi high class pulak taste dia pilih saya? :P Poyo kan? Ahh kisah apa , poyopoyo ni lah yg dia sayang! :')
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