Irreplacable

Post ini saya tujukan kepada Nur Liyana Amira yg memang sudah lama nantikan post dari saya. Eh? Bukan semua post memang untuk dia ke? Haha. Kesian dia lama tunggu post. Maklumlah sibuk dengan final. Yes! Finished with mua finale. I'm a free young man! For 2 months at least. No idea what to do. Nak kerja jugak , but need to use all the times spared for her. Dilemma. But easy choice :)


Dear sayang , 
Firstly Happy 20th for this month, I know it's late. Honestly I forget about this very important day in my life. F**k you finals! I remembered it on the 23rd of march when writing the date on the Physics answer sheet. Urghh! Only God knows how I felt that time. So I planned on to wish her by posting like this one la. I'd like to surprise her. But as always , she always knew err not knew la. Instincts maybe? Alaaa se**** se**** kan? Hehe. Well again , I'm terribly sorry for the late wish ya? Happy 20th Hunny! Melafchusomashmashmash! I apologise for the times I have ruined our joyful times , unintentionally of course. Would I ruin your happiness on purpose? Hell no! That'll ruin my happiness more. But still I did those mistakes and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the times I had raised my voice to you. It's more painful to me raising my voice towards you then you hearing it. I'm sorry for spending less time with you , I'm sorry for the times I'm not there when you need me whether I know it or not. I'm sorry I'm asking you to change just to comfort me. You must know , I love you just the way you are. Sometimes I forget and get carried away. Forgive me for that. Honestly , no offense but sometimes you are the pain in the ass. I dont give a sh*t about that because you are the cure to my everything and everytime. When you hurt me , I need you to cure me back. No one else can. The difference between you and others is when others hurt me they can't cure me a 100% , I need you for that 100%. And when you hurt me , others can't cure me but you can. Remember that hunny. Happy 20th hunny! May we are blessed by Him. Melafchuusomashh. Thank you for making me a better me for me. All I need to do know is try to be the best for you.


Well about today , I was from Penang to Shah Alam to meet Liyana. A few of my friends were with me as they're going in the same direction. But again , a detour from Dollah. Urghhh. How I wish I could be firm. I was quite in rage but I did'nt show. Takpelahh , tak salah tolong org. I was not in a good mood. Since yesterday because we had a fight and we did'nt contact the whole night except for a couple of texts. I was in a bad mood otw meeting her.  After sending Hafiz , I went straight to pick her up. Honestly , plan nak jual mahal dgn dia because of the fight last night but the moment I lay my eyes on her , *poof all my moodiness and my rage were gone. My earlier plan I cursed it. I think myself as a fool! See? How she's important to me. Hehe. Today we had err High tea together then we went to sunway and see a movie! Hehe. Tuwit jewww :') Then we had dinner with my parents and mok. Hehe. Then we visited my cousin because she successfully delivered a baby girl! So Yana was there but bodohnya aku ni tak introduce pun dia kat sesapa. Bengong kan? Bukan segan ke apa. Tah? Tak pernah buat so terlupa. So sorry sayang :( Next time I wont forget! Then we went to see the baby. Liyana holds and carries the baby! Awwww :') Berangan dah! Haha. Then I need to send her back because of sh*tty curfew. We did'nt say goodbye well enough. Even it hurts but I understand. Now she's asleep. Tired. Me too. But unfinished assigment needs to be finished first. Hehe. Hmm. How I miss her so much. I sprayed her scent all over my room. Haha. Okay gtg. Long journey again tomorrow.


To my Yana ,


Iloveyou so much. We are strong and getting stronger each day. That's what you said :') I believe in us. We can make it happen kan wak? Hehe. All I need is you and your love and same goes to you. Shower me with your love hunny :') Don't ever let it stop cause I wont :) Pray to Him sayang. Melafchuuuuberimashhhh <3

The Finale

Before I get to the topic I want to post about my 19th birthday. It was on the 18th February. Haha , memang dah lama. Almost a month dah saya 19 tahun ni. Well I'm supposed to be seating for my physics test on the 18th so I can't go home to celebrate my birthday. So my parents planned on to come to Penang and visit me. But on friday I was informed that my test will be postponed the following week or so. So I called Ayah and told him that I will come home and celebrate my birthday at home.

Well on friday which is the 17th of february , I drove back home to KL with Sufi. But I send him straight to Seremban as he needs to collect his passport before 5. After sending Sufi I decided to visit Wan as I am at Seremban pun kan. Wan served me tea. She even gave me pocket money for my birthday! She remembered! Haha. Mestilahh , cucu kesayangan ni :B Just wished Atok was there too..

After that I drove to SA to meet who else la kan? Haha. Uii lama tak jumpa , rindu! Haha. We had dinner together and then I drove back home. I arrived exactly at 0000 18th February. Auuuwwww I'm 19 already :P My parents were the first to wish me. I was born on 18th February 1993 at 0008 in the morning. Haha! After chatting with my parents I went to sleep. The next day I received presents from my parents. A watch , a shirt , two tees and a wallet. Much appreciated guys, Thank you so much!

Then I went to pick Yana up as we're having dinner together tonight. After picking her up we decided to go to Ww to buy Haziq's present. Then , jengjengjeng! I received a present from Yana  Guess what it is? Another watch! Haha. Comel kot jam tu! Pink lagi! She also made a card for me. That's so sweet of her :') Oh and before giving the present she was like hesitating. She's afraid that I won't like it. Comel kan? Haha.Then , we went to my home and prepared to go for dinner. Oh yea , she's spending the night at my home. Tak pernah tau bawak someone special to spend the night at my home. You're the first and last kan wak? Ngehehehehehe. We had dinner at a japanese restaurant. It's me , my Parents , Haziq and Yana. She seems to fit my family very well. My parents like her very much and so does she. Kan? Hehe. All of us talked a lot during dinner. We had such a great time. After dinner we went back home. That night me and Yana planned to wrap Haziq's presents and make him a birthday card. So we did. Well she did. I slept. Haha. Kesian dia , but she did'nt mind :') She's just happy to spend time with me. Oh and we even looked at my baby pictures together. Haha. Well that's mostly all about my very special 19th birthday. I'm sorry if I miss any part of the story. Thank you Ma Ayah for everything that you did for my birthday. Thank you Yana for spending the time with me eventhough you have a test coming up. Thank you Haziq for err thank you je lahh. Haha. Thank you everyone who wished! Thank you Allah sebab panjangkan umurku :) Hope I'll be a better person as I grow up. Aminnn :)

Okay back to The Finale. It's nothing , it's just MY FINAL EXAM IS AROUND THE CORNER! I'm so not prepared! Rasa mcm bnyk sgt main this semester! I'm so scared. Statics , Physics , Calculus , Bel and CTU. Adoiyyaii cuak gila! I have to maintain my results. My parents really want me to study abroad. I want it too. But whatever it is , niat kena betul. I must remember that , always. For those who read this post , I hope you will pray for my success.

To my beloved NurliyanaAmiraMohdZainal , I'm facing my final sayang. I hope you can understand if I'm spending less time with you for these major long three weeks. I promise I'll try my best to be whenever you need me okay? Don't be afraid to seek me okay? I want you to be there. I need your support sayang. You know kan I need you? Yup! Especially these times. You're my inspiration. You're my motivation. You're my reminder. You're my back bone. Please do remind me to do my best , not to give up. Remind me about my intentions , remind me about my parents , remind me about us. I need you sayang. Please do pray for me. If you're lonely just give me a call okay? Jgn cari orang lain pulak! Hehe. 

Awak , lately we've been arguing and fighting quite a lot kan? Well it's normal lah tu , ke? :O Hehe. We're building us together , these things happens. We need to be together facing these things. You can't do it alone , I can't do it alone. I need you , you need me. That's us and you know it , and I know it. Forgive me for being selfish , raising up my voice or losing my patience towards you , or anything that I did that hurts you. I'm so sorry. You must know that , hurting you hurts me more. Thanks for always being there for me , thanks for making me happy , thanks for being patient with me , thanks for caring about me , thanks for loving me and thanks for YOU :) I'm so grateful that He sent you to me. I never stopped thanking Him for you and I never failed to pray for the best for us. I Love You so much sayang. No one can replace you. I promise to try and be a better person for you , for us :) Remember my promise wak , I want to be the one who guides you to Jannah. InsyaAllah :')

Ammar Fiqry cintakan Nur Liyana Amira <3