Hi there you yes you.
I am all stressed up running to the 20th Nov 2012 because of my commitment with the Karisma thing that I am involved in especially when the management really sucks . At the same time feeling excited because my 1st anniversary celebration with you is coming up soon. I'm really looking forward to celebrate the one year old relationship with you.

Knowing the fact that we can’t actually celebrate it together because of you are in your semester break and back in your hometown and me busy with my trainings in Penang and the worst part is the game schedules fall on the BIG day of ours really hit me hard . I try my very best to be calmed and understand the situation because I was taught by my dad all these years that we can never get all the things that we want all the times because life is complicated and there are ups and downs.

Holding to that I get my lazy brain to think of a way or alternative to salvage the Big day that I am waiting for all this while and try to make the best out of it and keep the plan to myself. In between the hectic  schedules and the internet access problems I managed to pre booked a florist delivery service to send you a bouquet of flowers to show my love on the big day of ours. Phew wolaa lega teramat sangat.

Now I can concentrate with my game because my team rely on me to perform because they know I am new with hockey and I never played hockey my entire life and to be the goalie is not easy. I don’t intend to let my team down after they showed the confident in me. After all we are carrying the UITM Penang flag ni :3

Came Saturday the 17th of Nov 3days before our Big day and 2 days before the tourney where I received this shocking news from you that you are leaving for JB that nite with your mom and adik to visit wan who is not well lately.

Dang ! Dang ! Don’t get me wrong. I am not saying that you shouldn’t go visit your wan. In fact I personally think that it is the right thing to do and you should go because I know how close you are with your wan and how worried and concerned you are when you get the news your wan is seriously ill. Furthermore I am very sure you would do the same thing if it happen to me kan wak ?

My brain start to spin again and I couldn’t find a solution at that very moment and that night one of my teammate had a game to play in Jalan Duta hockey stadium so I need to send him because earlier I brought my friends to my house and treated them with ma's cooking . We still have not received our allowance so no money -.- At least all of us get free late lunch at home that day. Hewhew thanks ma for the yummilicious lunch really appreciate it.

During the game that night while others are so engrossed with the game I am engrossed with something else. Finally I decided with a heavy heart that I need to reveal the news to her. For record purposes I need to state here that every time I plan to surprise her there are always something happened that she gets to know it somehow or rather -.- Pity me seriously. Masamm

I called her up and broke the news about the delivery. She kept on asking me what is it but I managed not to tell her and we finally agree to postpone the delivery.
Then came the tournament day on Monday 19th Nov 2012. We won the first game Alhamdulilah against Kedah. Ayah informed me earlier that he might want to bring my Lil’brother  to see our game on that day. I was okay with that and nothing strike my mind at that time that you have sought ayah’s helped to surprise me that day because it is not our Big day yet.

We lost to Perlis that afternoon game and I was a bit sad cause ayah and mok came all the way to watch me for the first time. After the game ayah told me that he have something for me and asked me to follow him to the car. Even at that time it doesn’t ring the bell , maybe I  still cant get over the defeat and too tired I guess.

Taadaa ayah brought out the Secret Recipe cake box ! Uuuuu... Then ayah said Surprise ! From Liyana. Malu ni tersengihsengih. Haha . So I keep maintained my poyoness and gave ayah my big smile. Liyana whatsapped me yesterday and mintak tolong belikan cake for you and I just followed her message. This is for you and sorry I cant deliver to you tomorrow because I have a meeting to attend. Kira okay lah eh 1 day earlier ayah said. Okayy yah okay thank you that is all that came out from me.

 All the feelings of losing the game and the tiredness suddenly gone with the wind and sheer happiness sipped in through my whole body and I feel on top of the world. Hewhew :)  Someone I truly love makes me feel so important and so special really awesome . Thank God I did not forget to utter the word syukur and Alhamdulilah for His Blessing.
Ayah and mok snapped some photos and took a video clipped while I make a short thank you speech to say my appreciation to you. Be forewarned that I am so embarassed with ayah and mok so don’t laugh kayy promise ? 

Ayah has always been there for me all these years without fail and I am indeed blessed to have a father like him and I am struggling to emulate him and really hope that I can be like him one day insyaAllah. I am glad that you feel the same way towards ayah and both of you really have the chemistry . I can feel that you are so comfortable to have ayah’s attention towards you and happy for you.

Ringringring. Ayah let both of us talked for a while and he entertained mok while we were talking. Dont get a wrong impression towards my dad of his actions and involvement towards our relationship. He prefer us to be guided and guarded and always remind both of us the do’s and don’ts and even gave us short tips advices  every opportunity that he has.
It is a long day for me that day and reached hostel quite late that nite after dinner and time to take a short breather before waiting for the clock to tick at 12 a.m midnight. Tak mandi pun. Haha. Again she beats me to wish our Ist Anniversary first. Hahaha. I start to accept the fact  that I can never beat her when comes to this but I am not going to give in easily next time my turn please :B

As early as six in the morning we have to leave for the stadium again and we are in the quarter final against Terengganu. Ada satu save gempak :p Won the game and into the semis with SHAH ALAM -.- Shah alam team is where the clubs and nationals players are and most favourite team to win the tourney. Who cares bak tang ah ! The spirit is high and furthermore today is Big day and I have sacrificed a lot for the game and furthermore Its my LUCKY day.

But , we lost to shah alam team but we fought till the end and we didn’t gave them an easy win cheh :p and waiting for the third and fourth placing. Finally 2nd runner up for UITM Penang Alhamdulillah.

We finished  our game and we still can’t go back because we have to wait for other teams. Nak tunggu final sat. Tired to the max and not enough sleep and rest has really taken its toll on me.
The rest is all this lahh..

A lonely 12th May

First of all , Happy Birthday to my younger brother Azhad Imran Ahmad Famy. Yes , today is his birthday. His 17th and facing SPM this year. Hope he'll do well. He will. Just don't turn out to be like me. Haha. Make Ma and Ayah proud! Dorang nak merasa org puji anak dorang , so be the one. I missed that. So , looking forward for another oppurtunity. I hope I won't blew it again for the 4th time :/ InsyaAllah.


Well last night I slept early. Lately I've been sleeping quite early. Yelahh , Joystick rosak. Game tak boleh main , takda kerja lain tidur je lah kan? Haha. Or maybe saving energy for the nights to come. Why? Oh , Yana had finished her semester so she's on a holiday la. So she'll be free for me. But wait till her camping ends la. Hehe. So that's why my body asks me to sleep early to reserve energy lah ni. Haha. Uuuuu! Can't wait! Haha. She has to help her mother Mar , Abahnya tak sihat. Understood. I'll try my best to help and support semampu yg boleh. Harap-harap dia sudi. Cehh. Eh lama tak dgr dia ckp tu. Kbye. Haha. Last night I randomly woke up , around err 2 or 3 maybe? IDK , I felt like missing something. Well ofcourse la kan. So I texted her. Then sambung Zzzz..


At subuh time I checked my phone. Nothing. Understood. Then Ma woke me up. We're going to visit Imran at his school for his birthday. I checked again my phone , nothing. Understood. After preparing , I wore the tee me and Yana bought for me last thursday. Yelaaa , rasa mcm ada je Yana sebelah. Ada je selalu. Cehhh. And surprisingly , Ma wore the tudung that Yana bought for her. Ma said it was beautiful. Actually , I planned to give that tudung for mothers day tapi dgr banyak cerita halal la , haram la. Tapi yg penting niat kita untuk sambut untuk Ma kita kan? So takpelahh , I gave the present early. Then I drove us. Ayah was not very well. So I drove. First we pick up some kuih's and then to Ampang point to pick up Imran's cake and lunch. The lunch was Nando's. Again , Yana. Aduh , terseksa. Haha. Then we arrived there. So we celebrated with some of Imran's friends. After eating. We gave Imran his presents. Ma and Ayah bought him a watch and Yana and me bought him a tee. Haziq? Brought his stomach. Haha.


Then I drove home. I felt something awkward. Not hanging my phone even a second at my ear today. Haha. Aduhh , rindu. I kept on thinking , apalah dia tgh buat sekarang , enjoy tak? Okay tak? Igt aku tak? Haha. Dekat 10 kali ' tak 'jugak la terpikir. Haha. Then to set my mind out to something else , I played video games with Haziq. Bila nak mandi , dtg balik tak tak tu. Haha. Aduhh , rindu. Dalam shower duk terpikir , ni first time ni tak contact langsung lepas Hong Kong. Gila tak tahan aku , sehari je baru. Aduhh. Then it was dinner time. Guess what? Ma ordered Dominos. Aduh Yana. Haha. Then I watched TV. At the same time I tweeted some ' not me ' stuffs. Haha. Later , I have to wrap a present from Mira to Ma. That made me remember the time me and Yana wrapped Haziq's present. Okay fine. Yana sorang -.- Aduh , tak reti aku wrap wrap ni. Sorry Mira. Haha.


Then my phone rang , for the first of the day at 2356. It was my beloved Yana. Aduhh , Tuhan jelahh tahu rasa mcm mana. I was so happy to hear her voice! Her sweet loving voice! Felt like ages since I hear that voice. Padahal baru sehari. Tak sampai pun sehari. Ahh lantak lah. We shared a little about our stories of today. Can't talk longlong , she has to sleep. She needs the rest. But I have bad news coming. Hmm. Not sure how to deal with it. Yelahhh , looking forward to it but mcm not gonna happen je. I'm sure she has reasons. Hmm. Nvm lah. Ada rezeki , ada lah. Hope it will happen.


Awak , awak jaga saya ya? Saya nak awak jaga saya. Tak nak orang lain. Hehe. Saya rindu lah awak. Kan betul saya kata tak boleh hidup takda awak , ni baru sehari wak. Haha. Awak kalau ada pape , jgn ke mana tau? Ke sini je. Hehe. Kita kuatkan wak kan? Hehe. Awak ni dah la cantik. Haha tak pasal. Haa ni nak habaq ni ' I don't love you because you're beautiful , but you're beautiful because I love you '. Hehe. Lafchu <3

Ni lah cantik saya , cantik kan? :)

a weekend to remember

Last weekend was a blast. I spent my whole weekend with her day and night. Well , it started from friday. We quarreled the night before. Just , some things. On the friday , she sat for her biology paper. I called her up before she started her exam , no answer. My guess is she's still in the ' quarrel ' mode so with dissapointment , I hung up and continued on sleeping. It was still early okay? -.- Then my phone rang , my black phone so my thought of her calling , I put it aside and I was right , it was not her , it's ayah. Ayah suggested some plan and I quickly agreed to it. Then , I called her up to tell her about the plan. She sounded err not happy but I know , she is. Hehehe. What's the plan? Okay :)


I picked her up at the evening. We were going to watch the Avengers , which is my second time , with my brother. But the movie is at night. Before that we have tea with my parents and my brother at breadties. After that , we went home and played carrom together! Haha. Finally! She was good at carrom but I was better! :p Unfortunately , ayah is the best. Haha. After finally prepared for the movie , we went to Wagsa Walk. I bought the tics earlier. So the three of us watched the movie. Unfortunately , Liyana had a headache. She's been studying late lately so not enough rest. She slept beside me in the cinema. Well to be honest , I felt like protecting her. Cheers for me! Haha. But she did wake up for the climax of the movie. After the movie , we went straight back home. Yes , she spent the night at home.


The next morning , I woke up late and Liyana , the guest , Haha! Had already taken her breakfast. When it's my breakfast time , she was there too. Teman saya lah! Hehe. Then we lepak at the living room. But then she told me she wants to study for her exam so okay lah. Then we had lunch which mama cooked. After that , she continued on studying. After sending Haziq to tuition , I slept for awhile because I was sleepy. At 4 , me , Liyana and my brother went to the book fair at PWTC. Liyana had been asking me to take her there so many times before , so I granted her wish la. Sama-sama. Hehe :p There were a lot of people there urgh. We did'nt even buy books , we just looked at the pictures. Haha. Oh , and we saw this nyonya drinks teh ais kot and made me thirsty. Haha. I met Hafiz there too. He was working though.


Afterwards I took Liyana to KLCC. We had our dinner there. My brother and I had teppanyaki. I was craving for Yoshinoya but it was closed :/ Oh and Liyana had pizza. All of us had desserts too. Liyana had Choco top , my brother had McFlurry and me? Moo cow! Hehe. After that we went to the fountain at KLCC just to relax and enjoy the scenery there. My brother met his school friends there and lepak awhile with them. So me and Liyana went strolling around the park. It was romantic la jugak. Hehe. First time weh! Haha. We also took pictures ofcourse. She loves to take pictures and I love taking pictures with her. Haha. Then we went back home. Later that night , we have an agenda. FA cup final! Chelsea Vs Liverpool. Me and Liyana watched it with ayah and Imran also for some time. It was fun. I was happy , doing what I like with the people I love. Happy kan? Hehe. Well Chelsea won , I was hoping it eventhough my actions were to Liverpool winning. I don't want to spoil these times! Hehe. 


The next morning , I woke up early because I have a basketball competition to attend. It's been awhile since I played basketball. A year ago maybe? So I brought Liyana with me and then send her back to college afterwards. I was quite nervous , not because of playing , because of Liyana watching me. I wanted it so bad but still , I'm nervous. Ye laaa , asik Messi je yg buat dia bangga , aku nak jugak. Well my team mate , Awi arrived late. So I was quite err mad? Yes , mad! But she was there to calm me down. Thank you! Then the game started and yes , we lost. Sh*t! That was embarrasing. But she did'nt seem to care. Urgh! Aku kesah! Nak buat dia bangga! Then we strolled in Jusco and sat down for awhile tooking pictures. Hehe. Kitaorg sweet doh weh! Haha. Then we met Awi and his friends at McD. I did'nt like Awi's friend so much. Urgh , nvm that.


After that we continued on strolling and we decided to go back home. I sent her. While I was driving , she slept. I understood , she needs the rest to study for tomorrow's exam. Then we arrived. It was hard for me to leave her , not after how we spent the weekend together. I just did'nt want to end it and so was she and she proved it more than I do. That touched me , but I have to be strong. She asked me for more time with her. I wanted it so bad too. But thinking of her exam tomorrow. Hmm. But I decided to spend more time so we went to the lake. Funny , both of us slept there in the car. Haha. Ye laaa , lama tak bangun awal. Haha. After that we went to Giant to buy some of her stuffs first. Then I sent her back. It was hard but we have too. Before that , we even invent a ' move ' for us! It even includes slapping! Haha. Sebab tu laa aku sayang dia :')


On the way home , seeing the roads back home with no her , it's kinda awkward eventhough memang selalu aku lalu sorang-sorang. Arriving home does not make it better , worse. Seeing the living room we watched football together , the carrom board , the stairs , the dining table , everything! I felt like a pin pinning at my heart. I told myself , the time will come again. I hope so :)


Awak , terima kasih sangat sebab sudi luangkan masa awak dengan saya minggu lepas walaupun awak ada periksa. Saya nak minta maaf kalau ada kurang apa yg buat awak tak senang ke apa ke masa minggu lepas tu. Tu je yg saya mampu. Seronok sangat sebab dapat spend masa banyak dengan awak. InsyaAllah ada masanya , kita mcm ni lagi ya? Or maybe better? Hehe insyaAllah. Saya sayang awak :) 

*pap *pap *dush *shing :)

Goodluck :)

This is for you :) Awak , Goodluck for your final exams! You can nail those papers I know it. You're a clever girl , a very smart one. Don't get to stresses out yea? Just ring me if you need company or maybe to relieve your stress. I'll try my best to help since I'm free. For now la. I do apologise I did'nt go and see you at your college. Believe me , I wanted it more than you do. But I know I have to make sacrifices , both of us have too. I don't want to disturb you. You helped me a lot scoring my final which is very better than I expected. By being my inspiration and helping me in this and that. Now it's my turn. I hope I can do a good job just like you , or even more insyaAllah. Put aside other things first okay? I understand :)
Don't forget to call your parents okay? If possible , call them everytime before you start your exam to ask them to pray for you. Okay? I know their prayers will always be with you but asking them to pray could brighten up their prayers for you. You yourself don't forget to pray. If possible , wake up and perform your sunat prayer. Okay? Please take care of your health. Study macam mana pun , kesihatan jaga ya? Jgn taknak makan walaupun takda selera and don't drink to much coffee yea? All the best awak , don't be scared okay? Nervous is okay but don't let it control you. If you can't control it , pray to Him. Ask for strength okay? You'll do well insyaAllah. You must be better than me tau? I dare you! Hehe. Make sure I lose okay? Again , Goodluck and All the best sayang! My prayers will always be with you. Go and ace your exams! :)

Happy 20th NurLiyanaAmira

Happy 20th awak :) Yeayeayeayeayeayeay! Hehe. Dah berapa lama ni kita berhubungan ni? Hehe. Err it's been 5 months oledi ma. Rasa mcm sekejap je kan? Walhal 5 bulan. Tapi dalam sekejap-sekejap pun , rasa mcm lama sgt kan? Haha. Tu complicated sikit tu. Haha. Edehh


Dear Sayang ,


For the past 5 amazing months , we've been through a lot together. Hapyy or unhappy times. We fought sometimes in this 5 months. We faced problems in this 5 months. But the thing is , I'd rather fight with you rather than anyone else. I mean like , we fight to be better la kan? I guess. Hehe. And those fights ended pretty good. Without those fights we might not know each other so well like we do now kan? And even in big fights we ended up searching for each other kan? Well that's the best of it. It even makes us stronger kan, Ye laa , duk bergaduh je tapi last-last cari masing-masing jugak kan? That makes us believe in us more and more and more. We also faced problems , big and small. Well we handled it together kan? That's a test for us. I can't deal it by my own , you can't deal it by your own. Eventhough sometimes the problem happens because we're together. Urghh I don't mind a bit. Being with you is more important to me. Whatev problems comes our way , insyaAllah we can deal with it kan wak? I also take this oppurtunity to apologise for my wrong doings for this past 5 months we've been together. Honestly , I regret every mistake that I've done to you. I wish I could take it all back but the fact is I can't. In the future I hope I'll reduce my mistakes and even try to make no mistakes at all. But yea , still. I'm not perfect. I'm just a normal human being who loves you soo much. And sorry if I can't fulfill your needs. It feels really bad when I can't give you what you want. I'm sorry. Thank you for everything. You really make me happy. No one else can make me smile like the way you can. Thank you so much. I'm looking forward for the months , years to come insyaAllah :) iloveyou sayang , I really do. All I need is you , your love , your care..your EVERYTHING! Tamak kan? Hehe. Mana lagi tempat saya nak tamak? Ecehh. Hehe. Melafchuuuu <3

Saya baru nak wish awak dekat phone tapi awak mcm marah? Penat sgt ya? Ke merajuk sebab saya wish lambat? Igt saya tak igt ya? Hehe. Saya bukan tak igt , tadi igt tak nak kacau awak study. Yelaaa , nak exam esok. Sebab tu laa saya suruh awak bgtahu awak nak tidur. Hmm. Takpe lahh. Kesian saya sorang-sorang :p Melafchu <3

Selfish

The word selfish has been used two times against me. Well at least the mattered ones la. Am I? I guess I am. Is it me that always think about myself? Always thinking about what's important for me and not thinking about other people's feelings? I guess so. I did'nt realise it till then. Honestly , not to brag or anything but before this I thought I was the most unselfish person amongs the people I knew. Sometimes I took their pain and let it be mine, Honestly I don't actually care. I just love seeing people happy especially my loved ones. Allah kata ' Kalau kita bahagia kan orang lain , Dia akan bahagiakan kita '. I believed in that. But still I admit it , I do also hurt people at times and that's why sometimes I became annoying to those people. You know , like trying to apologise , making stupid jokes and other things that might annoy people laa. I felt guilty and soo stupid especially if I hurt My Parents and My Girl. Still improving on that. It's hard for me to be a better person. But with the help of someone , things could be a lot easier. That someone could be an inspiration for me to be better. As far as my life brings me , my parents and Liyana are my inspirations in a lot of things. My love for them can make me stronger to help me be a better man. That is why I dont care for balasan or whatev , it's just loving them helps me. But still , as a human being I also need love , care and attention from others especially them. For me it's kinda hard for me to ask something from someone. That's just me. Sometimes I want something so bad but my throat just can't spit it out to anyone. That kinda hurts me laa. Yelaa , apa yg nak tak dapat. It's not like jual mahal but IDK , It's just hard for me to ask. Even to say no if someone asks me for help eventhough it might trouble me , it is hard for me. My parents and Liyana always reminded me not to let people take advantage of me. Well , I'm trying my best. Sometimes yes I say no to those who seek help , but then comes the guilt and everything. I hate that even more. Sometimes I even sacrifice my needs for a person. Honestly , it hurts but seeing them happy cures it all , well almost. So as a conclusion , pfftt mcm essay pulak dah. I'm a person with a BIG but very DELICATE heart. That's me. That's why sometimes with people I'm close too especially Liyana , I felt free. I feel free to ask something , I feel free to complain my problems , I feel free to pamper. Actually I'm not a pampered person , just to those who I felt comfortable and close too , like my mother , Liyana and sometimes my father , my grandmother and my late grandfather. These are the person who I feel free to be with. I can't be free easily with other people. What free means? Free means like , I can be pampered , I have the guts to ask something eventhough I felt awkward asking for it , I can express my feelings because it's kinda hard for me to share my problems with random people even bestfriends , I can express my love comfortably and I just can be my annoying self. These is the ' free ' I was mentioning about. I only felt this ' free ' with my parents and Liyana. That is why I love and appreciate them very much. But maybe because of this ' free' thing , I am selfish. Hmm. But theres no one else , I have feelings too. Sorry if I hurt you or anyone. I'm not trying to be selfish , I just feel free and comfortable to do it with you. Hmm. Sorry.  Not all people know who I am. Well now you read it you know la jugak. But you don't have the experience knowing me. And maybe you might not like it. Hehe. But thanks anyway for those who care about me :) Oh and sorry if you rasa saya brag ke poyo ke apa , ni blog saya lantaklah! Haha joking , sorry , not to brag or anything , just expressing. Hehe. And special thanks to Mom and Dad , I love you guys so much! And of course , to my dearest love , NurLiyanaAmira , thank you too and melafchuberimashmashmash <3

Holiday

Okay actually tak da ilham sebenarnya nak post apa. Tapi kesian dekat si dia yg sudah lama menanti. Haha. Tibai jelahh mana datang tu , taip je :)


Well , fyi I'm on my semester break. It's for two months. Before my break , I planned to work. Yelahh sudah ' dry ' oh. But till now , I did'nt apply for any part time job. Haha. Why? Err 7% lazy 3% thinking about other plans 90% thinking about spending time with familia and me girlia. Haa , baik kan saya? Pfttt


Liyana asked me to read a novel which she favours so much. So thinking about nothing else to do I said ' Okaylah ' kan. So she gave me to as an assignment. Edehh , cuti pun ada assignment. Eh tanggungjawab mana ada cuti , makin banyak cuti ni ada lah. Hehe. ' Aku bukan mistress '. That's the title of the novel. So I started to read lah. It was quite interesting. Why? Only we know. Haha. It exists in me and Yana's world. Haha. Well , I finished reading the novel and I've returned it. For those who wants to know what is interesting about the novel , read it lah. Promote ni. Haha. Well , by reading the novel , more things that I can share with Liyana lahh. That's the good of it.


There's this one day when I call her was not like what I expected. Liyana was mad at me and err did'nt trust me. Because she saw the pictures of me with lelet during PLKN. Err actually I kinda wanna forget about that. There was a moment but we're okay now. Very :) Just look at a positive side. She proves that she loves me and we aprreciate each other more. The best thing is , we learned something. Both of us.


I spent a lot of time with her during my break. Well compared to when I'm in college , ofcourse lah. But still , not enough! Haha. Bak kata orang ' We give calf muscle you want tigh ' Hehe. I appreciate all the times we've spent together. It's just it's now her time to face her finals. So I need to support her and not to distract or disturb her lahh. I don't want because of me , her future is ruined. I want to be the one who brightens up her future! Ecehhh. Hehe.




For the times we spent together for the past two to three weeks , I learned a lot. We learned a lot. We get to knew each other more , we understand each other more and we grew even stronger. Yes we fought sometimes , but we took it as a lesson to make us stronger. Both of us can tolerate. And that makes me believe in us more. Both of us are not perfect. There are some part of me that needs to be better and same goes to her. But the best thing is , she's best at this and I'm best at that. We complete each other. Hehe. So we can help each other to make the parts that needs improvement , be the best. That's why we're strong. For those who seeks advice , just give me or her a call. We can help you. We're professionals in relationships. Hahahahaha. JOKING. But still , I love my relationship.


I thinks this is all. Thank you for reading :)

ilooked silly but she loves me.

ilafchuberimashhh<3

Sorry wak , ilham tak datang. Better posts will come okay? I promise

This is why

1) “Sekali suami minum air yang disediakan oleh isterinya adalah lebih baik dari berpuasa setahun”

2) “Makanan yang disediakan oleh isteri kepada suaminya lebih baik dari isteri itu mengerjakan haji dan umrah” 

3) “Mandi junub si isteri disebabkan jimak oleh suaminya lebih baik baginya daripada mengorbankan 1,000 ekor kambing sebagai sedekah kepada fakir miskin”. 

4) “Apabila isteri hamil ia dicatitkan sebagai seorang syahid dan khidmat kepada suaminya sebagai jihad”. 

5) “Pemeliharaan yang baik terhadap anak-anak adalah menjadi benteng neraka, pandangan yang baik dan harmonis terhadap suami adalah menjadi tasbih (zikir)”. 

6) “Tidak akan putus ganjaran dari Allah kepada seorang isteri yang siang dan malamnya menggembirakan suaminya”. 

7) “Apabila meninggal dunia seorang dan suaminya redha, nescaya ia dimasukkan ke dalam syurga”. (Hadis Riwayat Tarmizi) 

8 ) “Seseorang wanita apabila ia mengerjakan sembahyang yang difardhukan ke atasnya, berpuasa pada bulan Ramadhan, menjaga kehormatan dirinya dan taat kepada suaminya maka berhaklah ia masuk syurga dari mana-mana pintu yang ia suka”. Dan ingatlah wahai wanita, semua itu terangkum di dalam suatu perkataan iaitu “TAAT”

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Awak , this is why I picked you. I know you'll be the perfect one. Ingat ya wak? Kita niat apa yg kita ada ni sebab Dia ya? Mintak keredhaan dari Dia tau? Bersyukur jgn lupa. Tanpa Dia awak takda dalam hidup saya and tanpa Dia saya takda dalam hidup awak. For this to last , it must be from Him jugak. Ask Him for it ya? Antara syarat doa yg dimakbulkan is ikhlas and kesungguhan. We can do it kan wak? I know we can. Melafchiuuu <3

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Irreplacable

Post ini saya tujukan kepada Nur Liyana Amira yg memang sudah lama nantikan post dari saya. Eh? Bukan semua post memang untuk dia ke? Haha. Kesian dia lama tunggu post. Maklumlah sibuk dengan final. Yes! Finished with mua finale. I'm a free young man! For 2 months at least. No idea what to do. Nak kerja jugak , but need to use all the times spared for her. Dilemma. But easy choice :)


Dear sayang , 
Firstly Happy 20th for this month, I know it's late. Honestly I forget about this very important day in my life. F**k you finals! I remembered it on the 23rd of march when writing the date on the Physics answer sheet. Urghh! Only God knows how I felt that time. So I planned on to wish her by posting like this one la. I'd like to surprise her. But as always , she always knew err not knew la. Instincts maybe? Alaaa se**** se**** kan? Hehe. Well again , I'm terribly sorry for the late wish ya? Happy 20th Hunny! Melafchusomashmashmash! I apologise for the times I have ruined our joyful times , unintentionally of course. Would I ruin your happiness on purpose? Hell no! That'll ruin my happiness more. But still I did those mistakes and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the times I had raised my voice to you. It's more painful to me raising my voice towards you then you hearing it. I'm sorry for spending less time with you , I'm sorry for the times I'm not there when you need me whether I know it or not. I'm sorry I'm asking you to change just to comfort me. You must know , I love you just the way you are. Sometimes I forget and get carried away. Forgive me for that. Honestly , no offense but sometimes you are the pain in the ass. I dont give a sh*t about that because you are the cure to my everything and everytime. When you hurt me , I need you to cure me back. No one else can. The difference between you and others is when others hurt me they can't cure me a 100% , I need you for that 100%. And when you hurt me , others can't cure me but you can. Remember that hunny. Happy 20th hunny! May we are blessed by Him. Melafchuusomashh. Thank you for making me a better me for me. All I need to do know is try to be the best for you.


Well about today , I was from Penang to Shah Alam to meet Liyana. A few of my friends were with me as they're going in the same direction. But again , a detour from Dollah. Urghhh. How I wish I could be firm. I was quite in rage but I did'nt show. Takpelahh , tak salah tolong org. I was not in a good mood. Since yesterday because we had a fight and we did'nt contact the whole night except for a couple of texts. I was in a bad mood otw meeting her.  After sending Hafiz , I went straight to pick her up. Honestly , plan nak jual mahal dgn dia because of the fight last night but the moment I lay my eyes on her , *poof all my moodiness and my rage were gone. My earlier plan I cursed it. I think myself as a fool! See? How she's important to me. Hehe. Today we had err High tea together then we went to sunway and see a movie! Hehe. Tuwit jewww :') Then we had dinner with my parents and mok. Hehe. Then we visited my cousin because she successfully delivered a baby girl! So Yana was there but bodohnya aku ni tak introduce pun dia kat sesapa. Bengong kan? Bukan segan ke apa. Tah? Tak pernah buat so terlupa. So sorry sayang :( Next time I wont forget! Then we went to see the baby. Liyana holds and carries the baby! Awwww :') Berangan dah! Haha. Then I need to send her back because of sh*tty curfew. We did'nt say goodbye well enough. Even it hurts but I understand. Now she's asleep. Tired. Me too. But unfinished assigment needs to be finished first. Hehe. Hmm. How I miss her so much. I sprayed her scent all over my room. Haha. Okay gtg. Long journey again tomorrow.


To my Yana ,


Iloveyou so much. We are strong and getting stronger each day. That's what you said :') I believe in us. We can make it happen kan wak? Hehe. All I need is you and your love and same goes to you. Shower me with your love hunny :') Don't ever let it stop cause I wont :) Pray to Him sayang. Melafchuuuuberimashhhh <3

The Finale

Before I get to the topic I want to post about my 19th birthday. It was on the 18th February. Haha , memang dah lama. Almost a month dah saya 19 tahun ni. Well I'm supposed to be seating for my physics test on the 18th so I can't go home to celebrate my birthday. So my parents planned on to come to Penang and visit me. But on friday I was informed that my test will be postponed the following week or so. So I called Ayah and told him that I will come home and celebrate my birthday at home.

Well on friday which is the 17th of february , I drove back home to KL with Sufi. But I send him straight to Seremban as he needs to collect his passport before 5. After sending Sufi I decided to visit Wan as I am at Seremban pun kan. Wan served me tea. She even gave me pocket money for my birthday! She remembered! Haha. Mestilahh , cucu kesayangan ni :B Just wished Atok was there too..

After that I drove to SA to meet who else la kan? Haha. Uii lama tak jumpa , rindu! Haha. We had dinner together and then I drove back home. I arrived exactly at 0000 18th February. Auuuwwww I'm 19 already :P My parents were the first to wish me. I was born on 18th February 1993 at 0008 in the morning. Haha! After chatting with my parents I went to sleep. The next day I received presents from my parents. A watch , a shirt , two tees and a wallet. Much appreciated guys, Thank you so much!

Then I went to pick Yana up as we're having dinner together tonight. After picking her up we decided to go to Ww to buy Haziq's present. Then , jengjengjeng! I received a present from Yana  Guess what it is? Another watch! Haha. Comel kot jam tu! Pink lagi! She also made a card for me. That's so sweet of her :') Oh and before giving the present she was like hesitating. She's afraid that I won't like it. Comel kan? Haha.Then , we went to my home and prepared to go for dinner. Oh yea , she's spending the night at my home. Tak pernah tau bawak someone special to spend the night at my home. You're the first and last kan wak? Ngehehehehehe. We had dinner at a japanese restaurant. It's me , my Parents , Haziq and Yana. She seems to fit my family very well. My parents like her very much and so does she. Kan? Hehe. All of us talked a lot during dinner. We had such a great time. After dinner we went back home. That night me and Yana planned to wrap Haziq's presents and make him a birthday card. So we did. Well she did. I slept. Haha. Kesian dia , but she did'nt mind :') She's just happy to spend time with me. Oh and we even looked at my baby pictures together. Haha. Well that's mostly all about my very special 19th birthday. I'm sorry if I miss any part of the story. Thank you Ma Ayah for everything that you did for my birthday. Thank you Yana for spending the time with me eventhough you have a test coming up. Thank you Haziq for err thank you je lahh. Haha. Thank you everyone who wished! Thank you Allah sebab panjangkan umurku :) Hope I'll be a better person as I grow up. Aminnn :)

Okay back to The Finale. It's nothing , it's just MY FINAL EXAM IS AROUND THE CORNER! I'm so not prepared! Rasa mcm bnyk sgt main this semester! I'm so scared. Statics , Physics , Calculus , Bel and CTU. Adoiyyaii cuak gila! I have to maintain my results. My parents really want me to study abroad. I want it too. But whatever it is , niat kena betul. I must remember that , always. For those who read this post , I hope you will pray for my success.

To my beloved NurliyanaAmiraMohdZainal , I'm facing my final sayang. I hope you can understand if I'm spending less time with you for these major long three weeks. I promise I'll try my best to be whenever you need me okay? Don't be afraid to seek me okay? I want you to be there. I need your support sayang. You know kan I need you? Yup! Especially these times. You're my inspiration. You're my motivation. You're my reminder. You're my back bone. Please do remind me to do my best , not to give up. Remind me about my intentions , remind me about my parents , remind me about us. I need you sayang. Please do pray for me. If you're lonely just give me a call okay? Jgn cari orang lain pulak! Hehe. 

Awak , lately we've been arguing and fighting quite a lot kan? Well it's normal lah tu , ke? :O Hehe. We're building us together , these things happens. We need to be together facing these things. You can't do it alone , I can't do it alone. I need you , you need me. That's us and you know it , and I know it. Forgive me for being selfish , raising up my voice or losing my patience towards you , or anything that I did that hurts you. I'm so sorry. You must know that , hurting you hurts me more. Thanks for always being there for me , thanks for making me happy , thanks for being patient with me , thanks for caring about me , thanks for loving me and thanks for YOU :) I'm so grateful that He sent you to me. I never stopped thanking Him for you and I never failed to pray for the best for us. I Love You so much sayang. No one can replace you. I promise to try and be a better person for you , for us :) Remember my promise wak , I want to be the one who guides you to Jannah. InsyaAllah :')

Ammar Fiqry cintakan Nur Liyana Amira <3

Valentine's Day?

Err 14th February. Hmm Valentine's Day for every lover in the world. Betul ke? Haha betul la kot. Tapi saya tak sambut sebab Agama saya kata salah and Ma saya kata tak elok. Haha. Kalau nak sambut ' Hari Cinta ' kononnya ni , kenapa kena sambut sehari ni je? Sambut lah hari-hari kan? Apa tak da duit nak sambut? Alaaa cinta tak perlu duit lahhh. Love only need Honesty , loyalty , sacrifice and ahhh so much more lahh. Cehh mcm Doctor Love aku ni. Haha. Takkk , saja je post gini sebab ada org tu suruh. Haha. Dia suruh pun , ikhlas je ni post. Betul! :)

Err sayang , Ammar nak bagitahu ni. Walaupun kita tak sambut ' Hari Cinta ' ni , I can't give you flowers , chocolates or any other gifts lah kan , I'm sorry. Saya bukan tak nak kasi , nak! Awak tahu kan? Eleh , cakap boleh la Marr. Haha. Tapi saya betul ni , nak. Sayang tunggu eh? Nanti Ammar bagi apa pun sayang nak! Yg Ammar mampu jelah. Hehe. Kenapa yang? Bagi Ammar tak cukup ke? :P Walaupun kita tak sambut Valentine ni , Ammar nak Yana tahu yg Ammar sayang sgt Yana. Bukan sebabkan ada hari ni je kan nak express feelings kan? Hehe. Yana , hati Ammar ni kan setiap masa tau ckp ' iloveyou ' dekat awak. Kalau org boleh dgr , marah dorg sebab bising! Because my heart shouts! Hehe. Setiap degupan tu dia sebut Iloveyou lah. Cehhh. Hehe. Yana tahu kan? Sebab awak kan tahu hati saya. Heheheh. Org bnyk express their feelings on 14th February but my heart expresses it's feelings towards you every day sayang. Jujur ni :) 

About your friends tu. Err I'm sorry I can't help much or even little. You need to know that I'm always with you sayang. Like I promised kan? Through Ups and Downs. You know I'm there even if you don't need me. You can always come to me sayang. Ada lah org ni dia kata I have her shoulders to cry on kan? Hehe same goes here! Remember this sayang your battle is my war , your joy is my happiness and err takda idea dah. Haha. Sorry yang. Hehe. Saya tadi bukan nak back up ur friends or what , I'm just trying to help you. Yelahh tak nak lah awak gaduh ke apa dgn dorg kan? Dorg ni lah yg tolong saya tgk-tgkkan awak skrg ni. Nanti bila kita dah bersama , haa gaduh lah! Haha. Jokingjoking. You need to know this sayang , they need you more you need them. Trust me. You're a very nice person sayang. Biar lah kita buat baik kat org ya? Someday He'll repay what you deserve okay? Again I'm sorry if I don't help. It makes me feel like a err $%#!&

I'm sorry sayang this post isn't that much. I have to go dinner now. My tummy err dah rasa pelik. Padan muka kawan-kawan saya tunggu! Baru dorg rasa! Haha. Gurau je. Assignment ni kan paling penting? :) Lafchu!<3

Statics

What is Statics? 

Well this is it ^^^ alaa basics je baru ni t(-.-t)

Well I'm facing my Statics test this coming tuesday as for her if I'm not mistaken her Biology and Maths test too. It's a very busy weekend for the both of us so we must manage our time well. Kena lah pandai-pandai. Kurang kan sikit masa berbual di ganggang. Well kena lah sacrifice our time , it's for the best for both of us pun kan? Hope our sacrifices ni will be worth it lah. Ala baru sikit , nanti lagi bnyk sacrifices kena buat! Well we start from yg simple simple lah dulu , build together the strength kan? Well with her that will be easier lahhh kan yang? :)

So Statics , hmm cte dia mcm ni. Benda Statics memang susah la. Seriously! I'm trying to focus during lecture. Unfortunately the lecturer is err alaa not so good at lecturing lah kot? The whole class does'nt understand a thing he's teaching. Adoii. Lecturer ni memang tak nafi lah dia pandai gila. Soalan mudah gila dia buat! Yg students dia ni je telolong bongok kat situ. Adoiyaiii. Dah almost 6 chapters dia ajar , satu pun tak paham! :O Now i'm trying my best la jugak to paham. I know I must seek for other people's help. Kena laa usaha kan kalau dah jalan yg di beri tak dpt membantu , we need to find other alternatives la kan? Luckily she's there to support me :)

I'll try my best la for this test. For final exam pun and I really need to get marks on my assignment to help me get an A insyaAllah. Well Statics , now you're my bestfriend so be nice to me!

It's been a rough for the past few days kot for both of us. Hmm I was so stressed out because of err Statics ni laa. So mana lagi nak lari kalau tak ke dia kan? So I tried to calm myself down with her help. Well last night it worked , well of course it works! Only she can pun kan? Err but I think we're both stressed out so things are'nt soo perfect lah kan? She's exhausted because of studying I'm stressed out because of studying. Urghh ' studying ' ni -.- 

Well honestly I'm still stressed out. Eh before that! Tadi time workshop we did welding! Seronok jugak. So I tried to write the letter ' L ' lah kan? Tak jadi :( Then nak angkat benda tu terpegang without gloves. So three of my fingers melecur sikit. Hehe. Okay back to the story. I called her after I finished my BEL listening test. Just to calm myself down , to smile , to be happy with her , yelahh after stressing :O Well I think she's not in a good mood. I can't hear clearly what she said OTP tadi. She sounded so drowsy so I asked her if she wants to sleep ke? Tetiba je she said dia nak keluar 5.15 and boom! Well I disturbed her sleep laa kan. Hmm sorry wak , tak niat pun. Alah , asik tak da niat je saya ni tapi buat jugak kan? Hmm i'm really sorry. I just wanted to talk to you je , tak nak pun kacau awak tidur. Saya stress la wak , saya perlukan awak. I wanted to say that earlier but tak sempat. I really need you. No matter how you would treat me , being with you is all I need. Not anyone else. Only YOU. 

Okay lahh , GTG lah. I need to rest my brain. I can't think of doing anything else. I need her  :(

Nanti saya bagi awak ya? I can promise that , just not the time.

The 1st step [ 1/2 ]

On the 4th of february last saturday , well we did the first step! Hehe well bak kata dia 1/2 of the first step lah. Can't wait for it to be 2/2! Ngeheheheheh.

Last saturday , I woke up early. I asked her to wake me up at 7.45 so that morning she called. I woke up , took a bath and off I go to Shah Alam to pick her up. I arrived at 9 ++ then I waited for her to pakai tudung. Faham dah tu it would take a long time. Haha. About 9.45 she came down. She was beautiful! And guess what , again we wore the same theme! Hehe. Tak plan pun tau! Betul! Katanya se**** & se**** hehe. Then we went to McD's drive through for breakfast. We ate at the lake again. Hehe. Dah jadi tempat biasa dah tu. After we ate we planned on to go to midvalley. So we straight away go there. Luckily I brought along Ayah's Garmin. At midvalley we went to MpH to buy her stationaries. There I met Ainuddin! My friend. Haha. And after that she met her old friends too.

After that we went to my house! Yeaa , we're having lunch with familia. Otw to my home she was like err. Hahaha. She asked me to send her back la , she said she wanted to go home laa. She's nervous. Atototo. I can't recall how many times she adjusted her scarf and her err appearance lah. Well I told her she looks fine. Well she is. But still. Haha. That's my Yana laaa kan :) Then we arrived and she was like err tak nak keluar kereta. Haha. Honestly i'm quite nervous myself. Then we pun masuk rumah laa. We we're like pushing at the door. Haha. Then finally we were in. So I asked her to sit while I call my parents. First Ayah came down and they borak la sikit-sikit. Then Ma came down and borak some more. She was so cool and she looks comfortable to me laa. Hehe. So there I was with my parents and my girl. Happy me :) Then we have lunch. Ma cooked. I sat next to her. During that time I think she knows about my family more lah kan. Ayah and Ma talked about our family to her pun. It's a good sign kan? Hehe. Well I think she really fits in the family and my family think so too. Hehe :B

Then we performed our Zohor prayer. Tak jemaah pun , soon la. Hehe. She prayed at the guest room whereas the room might be err hehe alaa ada lah. Haha. Then after we prayed we have to go as her bus is at 4.30. We took pictures first! Hehe. Then off we go. Ma even said come here again! Hehe. She will Ma , kan wak? Hehe. Only God knows how happy I am that time. I hope she feels the same way too :) Then otw back to Shah Alam there were a lot of cars. So I'm afraid that we could'nt make it. I was quite stressed. Yelaaa , everything was perfect then jadi pulak mcm ni kan. But Alhamdulillah we made it. She was the last person to board the bus I think. Well no proper goodbye lah kan. Hmm I was err soo err IDK how to say it. But alaaa err sedih gila la dia nak balik! Kalau boleh tak nak dia balik :( But she has too. She has responsibilities to her family too. I waited her bus to took off. When the bus took off I can't find her in that bus. Urghhh *devastated. In the car I called her up :)

Well that was the 1/2 of the first step. Again , can't wait for 2/2. Hehe. Thanks wak sebab sudi dtg rumah saya. Ayah even said to me ' Bang , jaga dia elok-elok. She took a lot of courage to come here '. Hehe. Okay yah! Wak , thanks for making me the happiest and luckiest person on earth. This is only the first step wak. Can't wait for the other steps to come. Maybe other people will get through or have been through this steps kan. But they will never feel the same way as I  feel because I face this steps with you. Can't imagine a better chemistry than us. Cehhh :p Yay! Lafchu! <3

Cantik kan dia? Saya punya! :D

Goodbye January and Hello February :)

Well January 2012 has already passed. Nothing can change that and nothing can make January 2012 return. How time flies kan when almost everything went well. People say that time flies when you're having fun or happy. Well my time isn't just flying fast , it's zooming fast. Haha. Why? Hehe

A lot of things happened in January 2012. Well most of the things are new to me and meaningful.Well so far January 2012 is the best amongs the Januaries I faced since 1994. Why? Hehe. I completed these 31 days with NurLiyanaAmira by myside :) A lot of things we shared together , a lot of things we did together , a lot of things err everything together. Well not everything yet la , soon! InsyaAllah :) There are rough times in the time period of January 2012. But Alhamdulillah it all went well. What are the rough times? Heheh. I can't recall la! Haha

There are certain dates that are quite meaningful than the other dates in January 2012. Well I think there's more than these dates but I can't really remember. But these dates , yup! | 2.1.12 | 18.1.12 | 20.1.12 | What are these dates about? Hehe :B

2.1.12

Well on this date it was actually the day I was going back to UiTM. It's my first time driving my car all the way to Penang. It was my first time driving long distance without Ayah by myside so I was quite nervous. Hehe. But I have my friends Fitry and Hafiz to keep me company. But before I went back to Penang , I went to meet someone special! Heheheh! Who else kan? NLA laaaa. It's been awhile since we last met! Lama gila weh! I gave her the souveniers I bought err Ma and Ayah bought for her. She likes it! Fuh! Hehe. She just arrived from Kuantan to continue her studies at Shah Alam. I went to pick her up then we went to Carrefour to buy her groceries. Macam dah kawin kan? Haha After that I drove her to Puncak Alam to meet her friends. It was very far than I expected! But it was totally worth it :) I made her happy , that's most important. Later that night we went dinner together at McD with Fitry and Hafiz. After that I send her back to Intec and off I go to Penang. I remember that night before I left Intec. Only God knows how hard for me to leave her. Ye laaa , lama gila tak jumpa lepas tu sekejap je! The whole journey , I can't stop thinking about her. Jiwang kan? Haha. Cte benda betul tak salah pun :)

18.1.12

This date? Haha. I remember the week on this date was quite err IDK Haha! Well there's a clash against family and us. Both are important to me so it's hard for me la kan. But in the end it was perfect. Why I cherish this date? Haha. It was when my very own father helps me to solve my problems about my Mother and my Girl. I was so touched this time. I did'nt realise my father is this sweet. Haha. And during this time my father actually got to know NLA for real. Ayah was like so happy! Haha. He even helped me in tips to maintain the relationship with my family and NLA. That's very important to me. Without Ayah's help , Haha. IDK what would happen now. Thanks Ayah! You're the best! Ayah even made NLA touched! Power kan? Haha :P

20.1.12

Well this wonderful day :) I spent much time with NLA. Actually on this day , I was going home to KL from Penang for the Chinese New Year Holiday. I went back with my friends Hafiz , Amer and Sufi. I need to drop them at Shah Alam. And guess who's in Shah Alam? Yup! You guessed it! Haha. I volunteered to send them back just because it's an excuse for me to be in Shah Alam. Haha. Tak baaik wehh , ikhlas la tolong org 0:) Well around 5 O'Clock I fetched her and off we went to Dominos to get us some Pizza's. Tapau je , then we went to err what's the name of the lake haa? Urghh tak igt! Haha. We ate there , we searched for a nice hut la tu eat but it's a very longgg way. Haha. So we ate at this err not so beautiful hut. Haha. But there's definitely something beautiful there , kan NLA? :) After we ate I send her back to Intec so that she can pray. Me? Dah jamak tadi :D Then we went to sunway to meet her friend and her friend's boyfriend Wa and Haziq. It was my first time to meet them so I get a LITTLE shy. Haha. Then we spent all the time at sunway together. We were very sweet that day! To me lah. Ahhh korang jelous kenapa? Haha :P We both wore red. Haha. After that I sent NLA and Wa back to Wa's place. NLA's staying there for the night. So another dreadful night to leave her kan. Adoii. But I have to go , I have Ayah's office family day tomorrow. Wish that I can bring her along. But she's not ready yet. NVM , the time will come! Hehe. Oh other than that , this particular date is the 20th of the month. What's up with 20th? Haha! Lafchu NLA :)

Well now January had passed and hello february! Hope the seconds to come will be better. Like I mentioned before , it's the best January of my 19 years. Looking forward to the better january next year. Looking for the weeks to come , the days to come , the hours to come , the seconds to come. NLA will be by myside forever. InsyaAllah :) You know what NLA? My life begins now with you here. Lafchu sayang <3