Dear Anonymous

Okay err Assalamualaikum. To the anonymous , this post is for you tau? Hope you'll read it lahhh ya? Okay first of all , seriously I need to know who you really are. Yes I know about you. How? Err pandai-pandai awak lah. And don't blame her okay? She just did what she thinks is right.

First of all thanks for wishing to me and her okay? That's thoughtful of you. Ikhlas ni :) Err I'm quite surprised la how much you know about me. Still I can't recall who you are? Does'nt ring the bell la. It's quite weird. You knew about me a lot! Who are you? You care about me quite a lot. I appreciate that , thank you. You said that you don't exist in my life? How'd you know about me so much? No offense but awak stalk saya ke? Don't mean to accuse or what , just wondering? Again, no offense okay. You don't know her well la if you judge her like what did on your comments. I know how she is. I know who she really is. What's her attitude. During her happy times , sad times or tough times. I know all of that. And yes I'm ready of the consequences of her attitude tu. Me hurting or whatev kan? Saya dah sedia dah hadapi semua benda tu laa. Dah pikiak masak-masak dah pun. Whatev happens I have to face it la kan? Saya yg sedia terima dia mcm tu pun. She is just being herself. And it's herself that makes me fall in love with her. I know it's weird kan? Love is weird. Cehhh :D But whatever it is , thanks la because concern kan saya. Tapi you need to know that she is doing a good job. She's trying , that matters to me. So I hope you won't say bad things about her lah ya? I know you won't. You're a nice person. Kesian dia , nanti dia igt dia tak bagus pulak untuk saya kan? She's perfect. Like I said. I fell in love with her true self.

But I need to know lahh. Who'd you know about my life and hers so much? That scares us. Err I mean , err IDK? That kept us thinking and wondering who are you? You know what I'm feeling , you what she's feeling. Power lah awak ni! :O We never shared our feelings to other people? We kept it to ourselves je pun. How'd you know? Please tell me? I need to know , sorry to say but it bothers me lahh. It bothers my relationship with her too. IDK like something is meddling with our err life? Haa life laa. Saya tak maksudkan awak ni sibuk ke apa. I just need to know lahh.

Thanks for understanding her situation now. I respect her decision lah kan. I know the mess she's been through. Susah kan? And awak pun faham her situation now. But you need to know I'm okay with it. Okay is not enough kan? What's the point kalau she's messed up kan eventhough I'm happy? Tak syok lahh mcm tu. Better both of us okay then one of us miserable kan? So I think it's for the best pun. I appreciate you said that you love seeing me with her kan? Thanks a lot. Well please pray for the best for us if you don't mind lah. Again , I'm okay with it. I'm not miserable. She's always by myside if you want to know. And you need to know that her decision is not because of her friends persuasion or whatev. It's her own decision. It's hard for her. You knew that too kan. She made the decision herself. She's a matured girl , she knows what's best. Her reputation is my concern too. I need to take care of her reputation laa. I don't want people to simply judge her macam tu macam ni. Not after what she's been through. Kesian dia. She does'nt deserve that. So I'll do whatever it takes to err jaga reputaion dia. It's my reputation too.

From what I see lah kan. Err see ke? Know lah kot? You're a nice person. You're not a person who seeks revenge. You're trying to help , I know. But sorry , sometimes you make us uncomfortable. I know your intentions are good. So thanks for that. All I need to know is who are you? How'd you know about us so much? It'd be nice to know the answers to these questions. It kept me and her thinking , a lot! Sometimes it makes us laugh. We admire you knowing about us so much but sometimes creepy jugak. Heheh sorry. So please don't be mad at her because of telling me about all this. If nak marah dia , marah saya lah ya? Saya yg sibuk ni. She needs to share this with me. Sorry if I offended you. Takda niat pun. I just need to know who you are. How you knew about us soo much. And I need to clearify that she's not playing with my heart. Okay? I know her trueself. She is facing difficult moments. And I have to be there for her. And it'd be nice if you can pray for her happiness and us :) Salam. Tc

This is for you :)

NurLiyanaAmira :')

30 days and counting :)

Well okay , it's still about 5 and a half hours lagi till 20.12.2011. But IDK so excited to post this. Lagi pun I might be busy tonight sebab ada class and I have to study for my calculus test this wednesday. Pfftttt! Well hehe 20.12.2011 is a date me an NurLiyanaAmira have been together for 30 lon-----------------g days! Haa panjang kan? Sebab memang lama wooo! Wooot! Tahniah Ammar! Hehe. Well this post is dedicated? dedicated ke? Err tah? Ahhh! For je senang. Haha. This post is specifically for you sayang :)

Okayy err IDK how to describe my feelings actually, Only God knows how happy I am. Aih Mar? Baru sebulan dah mcm tu sekali? Haha! Yupyupyup! Jelous keww? Haha! Aduihhh boleh tak betul aku mcm ni kalau happy sangat! Haha. Baru sebulan dah mcm ni , nanti kahwin mcm mana la ek? :P WootWoot! Hehe. Okay I'm so happy and so grateful even it is only just a month we've been together but I felt like we've been together like forever! And and and , I'm still counting :) I think I know a lot of you know since the first time we err met ke? Haha. Okay fine , since the first time we knew each other. Liyana here , attracted me. Everything about her err IDK? It's all I've wanted all this years. So I get to know her more and yes! I like it! Ngeheheh. Blablabla I fell in love with her. You know how falling in love feels kan? Best kan? Well I felt even better because I fell in love with Liyana :') Untunglaaa saya :P

Okay since we're together at 20.11.2011. Catik kan cantik kan? Haha. Err a lot things happen. Bad things and good things. So far I think that we faced them well because we're together! Hehe. So I hope it goes on until the end :) We were soo happy together kan yang? Hehe. Even we faced some difficult times but in the end Alhamdulillah it turned out to be a good lesson for us. Being with her taught me a lot of lessons la. Err what lessons? Haha biar lah saya dgn dia je tahu. Benda baik pun kan yang? :) It makes us tougher , appreciate more , and quite matured laaa. I think we're in a serious relationship soo no playplay punya relationship la. I made up my mind that she's the one for me la. And I hope that I'm the perfect one for her too. Nanti jemput la kami kahwin ya? Haha :D

Err yana , Ammar sayang Yana tau? Tau kan? Hehe. I want to apologise to you if I hurt your feelings , I'm not really there when you really need me , I annoy you , Ammar ngengada sangat ke , poyo sangat ke , If I did'nt understand you much , If I'm not being a good boyfriend for you and other things related to that la kan. I'm soo sorry. I can't promise you to be better but I can promise that I will try my best to be the most perfect boyfriend you would'nt imagine of having. I'll promise I'll try :')

I also want to take this oppurtunity , cehhh. Haha. I also want to thank you lahhh because a lot of reasons. I wanna thank you because you trusted me , thank you because you're willing to take the risk to be with me , thank you for making me smile , thank you for making me happy , thank you for loving me just the way I am , thank you for trying your best to comfort me , thank you sebab layan Ammar yg tak betul ni , thank you for taking care of me , thank you for caring for me , thank you for being patient with me , thank you for being faithful to me , thank you for being strong for me , thank you for sharing with me about everything , thank you for loving me , thank you because you're willing to be mine and err thank you for everything :')

Sayang , I hope that we'll be together forever. Kita doa sama-sama ya yang? Let us work together ya to make us happen? What ever happens in the past we'll take it as a lesson ya sayang? I won't let you face any problems alone okay? You're battle is my war tau? Hehe. Biar lah orang nak cakap apa pasal awak , Ammar or kita. It does'nt matter yang. You know who you are , you know who I am and you know everything about us. So nothing can effect us kan yang? You're a strong girl , I think I'm strong jugak , Haha poyo! But together were stronger. I made the right choice yang. You know what is it kan? :)

Being with you is like a dream came true. Memang la panas kan tengok org duk berdating je berkepit je. Asik bersama je ke mana. Makan sama , study sama , bersukan sama , berjalan sama , ahh! None of that matters. Housemates pulak 24 jam bergayut! Tahu lah digi! Kabut je. Haha. Elehhh , korang gayut 24 jam pun , satu text Liyana tu je dah bermakna bagi aku tau! Haa! Haha. Ahh lantak lahhh! Titeww dengan Liyana hati tetap sama! Hehe. Our time will come kan Yana? Biar lahh kita jelous sekarang. Nanti kita kasi dorg jelous dgn kita pulak! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! Because I know , Ammar and Liyana the best kot weh! Haha. Kita tunggu ye yang? Awak takkan tunggu sorg , saya tunggu sekali ;)

Ni lah hasil kerja workshop saya. Penat wehh potong besi tu , kilat kan lagi. Teba; weh besi tu! :O Ahh. Lantak la demi dia kan? Cehh padahal assignment. Haha. Tapi kalau tak fikir utk dia tak siap weh assingment aku. Haha. Nak tahu tak L tu apa? Haa L tu untuk Love? Memang laaa. Tapi Love tu Liyana. Hehe <3

Happy 1st Monthverssary NurLiyanaAmira. Nanti kita jadikan sampai anni ya? Sampai kahwin tau? Hehe insyaAllah

Iloveyou cooooo mashhh sayang :')

Saya pakai colour baju dates kita :)

BU? :'((

Why is this happening weh? Why? I don't want to! Taknaktaknaktaknak! :'(

Is this a test for me from Him? Ya Allah , kuatkan lah diriku ya Allah. Tolong lah aku ya Allah :'(

AHHHHHHHH! Kenapa ni? Why? Nooo! This is not happening! Nooooooo! :'( AHHHHHHHH!

I need her , I need her :'(

She said that I can find someone else? Well that's true! But I just can't find someone else to replace her. Why can't she understand that? Did'nt I make it clear enough that she's the one? Not clear enough I guess :'( AHHHHHHH! She was not in a good mood , neither am I. So she told me to share the problems together. That moment she said that , my problems were put away. I was soo happy to hear that she wanted to share. But :'(

So I told her about my problem la kan cause I wanted to share with her. Then it was her turn to share hers. So I called her up , I really want to be there for her at anytime. It turned up IDK not really well? I felt so helpless. But that did'nt stop me. I tried my best to help her. But things get ugly later on , err ugly? No!!! It's worse ugly than ugly!! AHHHHH! Nonononononononononono! This is'nt happening! She asked to BU with me?!!! :'((

What? what? what? NOOOOOO! Please lah noooo?! Nooooo! Nooooo! :'((

I dont't mind spending money for you , beli topup or whatever! Every cents spent on anything that I spent for you is the most worthiest thing I have ever spent on! :'(

Every time I used my time calling you is the most precious time I ever had :'( Why should I find someone else when I have the most perfect girl I can never imagine I would have? :'( Why should I find someone else when I have a girl who I can call and make me smile even in my toughest time? :'( Why should I find someone else when I already found a person that I'm comfortable to be my true annoying , silly , childish , stupid , etc. self? :'( Why should I find someone else when I already have someone that can brighten up my darkest days? :'( Why should I find someone else when I have my own sunshine even on rainy days? :'( Why should I find someone else when you are the rain during a drought? :'( Why should I find someone else when I have a booster for me to be successful in life? :'( Why should I find someone else when I know there is someone who needs me as much as I need her? :'( Why should I find someone else when she's my tears of joy and sadness? :'( Why should I find someone else when I can be proud of who I am when i'm with her? :'( Why should I find someone else that changed my life to be better than others? :'( Why should I find someone else when I'd rather do anything for her when I used to think that it's impossible? :'( How could I find someone else when I see other girls , all I remember is her? :'( How could I find someone else when my whole life is about her? :'( How could I find someone else when my days and nights is all about her? :'( Why should I find someone else when I already have what I've always wanted? :'( Why should I find someone else when I already have a person I'm happy to share my life with? :'( Why should I find someone else when I can't afford to lose you? :'( Why should I find someone else when I already have everything? :'( Why should I find someone else when I have YOU? :'( If I do find someone else , you may call me the most craziest , lunatic , stupid person on earth! 

You're leaving me because you thought that you hurt me? It's my job to be hurt by you! No one else can hurt me other than the people I love and that includes you. But if you leave me , that kills me on the inside.

IDK what to do , please somebody help me? :'(

NOOOOOOOO! No one can help me! Korang bagi aku dia baru kau boleh tolong aku! Tidak jangan harap la! No offense guys but that's the truth. All I want is her :'(

Ya Allah , dah! Aku nak pergi solat , ngaji. Bye :'(

WCing is supposed to hilangkan rindu kan?

Err bukan ke? Err later laa , bagi cerita panjang sikit. Heheheh. About yesterday lahh kan. Class went well lah kot like usual? Oh yesterday was tuesday. The most packed class for the whole week. Urghhh. Starts from 8 a.m to 7 p.m. Luckily lab class in once in two weeks. So yesterday class started at 11. Statics was toughhh. Err okayy then blablabla laaa and it was tiring! Woot!

Okay yesterday before BEL class , she texted me and asked permission to play badminton. How sweet of her :') I asked her with who lah kan? Well , I guessed right! Haha. Pfftt! *jelousjelous* Haha! It's kinda hard for me to allow her kan , but there's no reason for me to disallow her kan? Or is there a reason? :O Nahhh , don't be selfish Marr. Well I allowed her la kan dgn berat hatinya. Haha. Booo! Huh? Ala biar la nak jelous pun! Aku nak main badminton dengan dia jugak! Then I went to BEL class. Err I sat infront -.- And the lecturer asked me so many questions. Ahhhh! Penat la madam nak jawab bnykbnyk. Takda mood tau! Cehh :P

After BEL class my friends asked me to follow them to the field to watch a friendly game. Soo okay lah? Then she called me. I asked her where exactly is she. She's in a car with her friends. Err with lots of courage , cehhh , I asked her where is she sitting? Infront! BOOOM! Haa tu lahh kau Marr , nak tahu sangat! Padan mukaaaa. Haha. I don't know laa I felt quite err down? Haa yeaa , down. I want to be the one sitting next to her , I miss those times when I drove the car and she's beside me :( Urghhh. Ahhh ala Marr , bukan apa pun! Duduk je pun , lek aaa. Errrr :S

Okay then we continued texting lah kan and she said something about Nan went to watch Ombak rindu with Fana. And she said she was shocked. Is she jelous? Why would she be jelous? Okay that scared me a little. Ahhh curse you nightmare! >:O Downdowndown I go again. Hehe. Then suddenly the rain started to fall , HEAVILY when we're about to go home. Ahhhh! Me and my friends ran! Haha. Sweet pulak lari dalam hujan nii , kalau ada dia ni , kita sama-sama lari , kejar-kejar. Wootwoot! Adoiiiii Marr kau ni kuat naa berangan! Haha!

As soon as I arrived home I called her, I felt guilty because kena hujan. I strictly prohibit her from playing in the rain but I did it. Urghh. So I apologised. Then Amer called me and said that Def has arrived , so I need to pick him up at the station. He's visiting. So I told her and she allowed me. I prayed and straight away go and pick him up. Then blablabla..

Later that night she invited me to skype tonight , with Yun and Waniee :O Cuak jugak , segan! Haha. I said okay but I have to study first , lama tak study -.- Then she asked me to call her. She said that she's going to a kedai and makan with Wanie on a motorcycle! Oiii mana boleh! Kang apa-apa jadik kang! But she insisted to sooo dengan berat hatinyaa lagi , saya pun membenarkannya :S

Then I studied and later that night we skyped and WCed! Her sister always disturb us. Haha. But she's cute sangat! Haha. But , I prefer her older sister , cuter! ;) Then we chitchatchitchat. She's so pretty! Haa! That reminds me! My sister tweeted me and said to me , that my girl's so pretty! Bangga kot! Haha! So I told her , and she was sooooo shy + happy! Hehe. So she decided to tweet my sister back. Good! Tighten the bond! Hehe. Then we continued on WCing. It was quite , err very late. Haha. But tak puas lagi :(

I love WCing with her , seeing how healthy she is , her laugh expression , how happy she is to see me too , her smile , her merajuk face , everything la! Hehe. I thought WCing with her will lessen my kerinduan to her. But hell no! Lagi tambah rindu ada la! Aduiiii T.T Then we have to end our WCing becaue I have class tomorrow and she's very concerned about me. And yea! Loveeeee it!!! Hehe.

So the conclusion is , WCing just makes me miss her more and more. Haha. Ahhh what the heck! I'll WC with her any free time I have! Tak kisah la rindu ke apa ke! I need to see her <3

:')

 ' Don't worry awak kata? Awak tu laki saya wak tau? Anything happens to you , affects me tau! '

This make me smile even when I'm not well :')

Siapa tak bangga kan ada awek lawa mcm ni? :D

You're beautiful sayang :')

Loveyouu<3

My activity during CTU

Buku conteng tertinggal , so tangan pun bolehh :)

Ni laa akibatnya bosan dalam class dan keangauan yg tidak terduga. Haha

A new start

Banyak ni nak cerita tapi kesuntukan masa , dah lewat , esok class. Kang dia marah pulak. Hehe. Okay started from petang tadi. She asked my permission to go jogging with her friends kan , then I asked laa dengan siapa? Her friends including her ex. So that stunned me a bit la. Yelaa jogging dgn ex pulak kan? Baru je berangan semalam pergi park dgn dia jogging and naik basikal sama-sama , tgk-tgk hari ni mcm tu pulak. Haha. But it's okayy lahh. I dont mind. Jelous? Ofcourse la weh , sayang dia kot! And because sayang la jugak I let her go.

So then malam , we skyped. Well things were good until she asked me to sing to her. And I said I can't. Bodoh kan? Haha ye! Aku pun pikir mcm tu jugak. Apa laa kau ni Marr. I knew she was dissapointed kan because I knew that she wanted me to sing to her for a long time. Then , I knew that , that evening when she went jogging , she jogged with her ex. Berdua je! Pehhhh memang tak sakit la kan? Haha. Memang aku down gilaaaaa. Haha. Then things got a little bit err apa ek? Tak best la! Mahunyaa aku tak emo! Gila apa? Haha. Tapi tah la? I knew that she must feel bad for doing that to me kan. Soo I need to understand and tak nak lah di cop mengongkong ke , emo ke apa ke. Biar lah sakit sikit , sikit? Haha. I turst her lah weyyy. Tolong jgn nak hasut aku ya? Tak bolehhh , aku sayang dia! Apa? Aku gila? Ahh lantak la , gilakan dia! Tak rugi pun , kau sibuk pahal? Cehhh :p

Later that night we talked otp laa , nak settlekan benda about her having problems with err my friends actually. I pity her soo much. I feel soo helpless. That made me feel guilty. Adoiiyaii. Hmm. All that I can say is I'll be there with her through her ups and downs. Haaaa so korang yg nak kacau dia ke nak apa ke , igt! Aku ada ni! Haaaaa! :D

Then things became more and more complicated. We talked about our relationship nii. It's strong macam apa? Metallic bond? Haha. But alaaa biasa laa kan goyah sikit sini-sana. Tapi bagi saya goyah sikit tu dah mcm gempa bumi nii! Haha. Well she expressed her feelings la kan about how I'm treating her. And to me mcm tak comfortable la for her. And it was like I'm forcing her laa. IDK? I'm thinking i'm doing a good job? Cehh. Apparently not. But sokayyy , I understands her now. She needs time Marr , you're taking things to fast! Just let the flow flows smoothly , feel the love man! Hehe. You need to be patient Marrr. Wait for her. She wants to be with you lahhh but just give her some time okay? Things will be perfect when the time comes mar. InsyaAllah :) Just keep on praying , don't stop loving her , always be by herside through ups and downs , wait for the right time , give her time , understand her , be strong ammar and be cool bro! Haha mcm poyo doh! Kan? Haha! Tapi betul doh , cool sikit ya marr? Kau sayang dia tak? Sayang! Banyak mana? Ohh tu kau kena tanya dia , dia tahu :) Oh marr , please don't let her past repeat okay? Okay I wont! I'll try my best! Korg tgk lah nanti! She'll have a future that she truly deserves! And that's a better future , the best future and a very happyhappy future! Jaga dia marr!! Ya , dengan sepenuh hati aku jaga dia! Jangan lah bagi dia terluka ke apa ke. Ya laaa! Tak nak aku bagi dia terluka. Dia terluka , parah la aku. Haa yolahh marr.

 Develop a new perfect start mar for you and her , gain a perfect path for both of you , and achieve the perfect ending together :')

IloveyouNLAMZ<3

Jogging

Okay dia kata nak pergi jogging dgn her friends. Saya bagi lah? Dia nak sihat kan :)

Memang la saya jelous tapi biar lahh , she has her rights kan? Baru smlm terbayang jogging dgn dia sebab dia kata nak kurus smlm time otp tapi saya tak tercakap kat dia. Enath kenapa? Biar lahh. Harap lah dia tak lupa saya , Haha saya tahu takk!!! :D

Okay bye nak main hockey :B

Swimminggggg

Okay today me and the boboys , pergi swim at a nearby swimming complex. We swam after maghrib but tungtangtungtang , approximately at 9 laa.

Nothing interesting to write about , err type -.- but before we left to the pool. I just can't leave her like seriouslyyyy. Rindu sangat wehhh! Dia pulakk mcm taknak je aku pergi kan? So memang berat hati nak pergi and taknak pun then the boboys booooooed me  -.- I know they're kidding :)

But at the same time , I dont want to leave her but she insisted , sebab dia malu. Haha tahu! comel kan? Haha. Igt kan sebab taknak lepas saya? Cehh :p

Then pergi lah swimming and started from there I thought about swimming as a weekly activity. Sebab apa? Haha. Jaga kesihatan , jaga body and nak tough! Haha.

Okay tu je cerita , nak pergi call dia. Rindu nii! Cakap nak mandi and solat je , ni pergi post pulak -.- Sorry! Dah dah! Bye!

*dialling tuttt..tutt

Morninggg

Okay tak pernah post pagi! Haha! Err I have a calculus quiz today laaa. Hope I'll do well. Doakan saya ya? Okay tu je lahhh , nak siap ni.

AWAK , You're Ammar's true loveeee <3

Baruu nak skypeeeee T.T

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Baru je nak skype , puas aku merayu kat broadband ni. HAHA. Sokayy la bb. You can rest now :)

Mak aihhh , asal nak terasa lebih marr? Mana aku tahu wehh? Aku happy sangat nak skype ni. Satu hari penat wehh class tak berhenti dohhhh. Ada laa benda nak kasi refresh balik kan? Pastu BB buat hal pulak , kau ni mmg cari pasal laaa. Nasib baik kau ma punya tidak aku campak kau keluar tingkap. Tingkat 17 ni wehhh , tinggi! Aduh lek marrr , kan dia dah biru tu? Haa mmg laaa. Kau biru time awek aku dah keluar buat apa ngekk? Lagi sakit hati kau buat aku ada lah! Kau uji kesabaran aku lah BB , sampai hati kau en? Aku jaga kauu betul-betul. Ala sekali je pun cap kau aku terhilangkan , aku jumpa balik kan? Nak balas dendam lagi? Fine wehhhh! Aduii sabarr marr sabar. Kau tu dah tak betul dah tu. Ahh! BB sial! Sebab kau aku emo ngn awek aku , aku marah kat awek aku. Aku tgh penat nii , kang dia jadi mangsa , kau lah ni! Aku tak suka lah buat dia mcm tu! Kang dia terasa mcm mana?! Kau dengki pahal?! Dia tgh nak lepak dgn member dia , kasi can la. Kau nak buat hal pahal? Nak uji aku? Fine kau menang! Aku tak suka lah rasa mcm ni. Tolong laaa , jgn buat hal lagi dohhhh. Please? Dah laa. Kau rehat ya? Aku kasi can. Maaf la kalau terkasar dgn kau ye? Maafkan aku tau? Kang kau hijau selamanya susah plak aku. Sorry ya broadband ku.

Scribbles :)

NAH AWAK , AWAK NAK KAN HARI TU? :)

Sorry kalau buruk and serabut. Time tengah ngantuk. Haha

<3

Dark night

DarkNight? Haha why? Well err , later lah.

I just read her blog , and err well I knew she's one of the most precious gift from Him. And she's the only one that can make my day shine so bright even when it's dark as a deep hole. See wak? I told you that you're sweet. Ni saya lelaki ni yg cair ni. Haha. And you're the only one that can cairkan saya. Haha. And other stuffs I never thought that I'd do. Like I said before wak , YOU changed me. In a positive way lah kan ofcourse :)

Err kesian dia , dah lama dia post blog tu just for me but I just read it this night. Hmm sorry ya wak? I appreciate it veryveryveryveryveryvery much! I know that you put a lot of effort posting it. Ammar boleh rasa laa keikhlasan awak tu yang. Cehhhh :P

Oh and the past two days ni was quite a err shocking lah kot? days. IDK laa , people kept saying bad things about her. And the worse part is they're also my close friends. That hurts even more. Hmm. I felt rally bad for her. Because I knew she'll be facing this crisis [ cehh ayat ] tougher than I do. Guilt clouds me. I'm sorry wak. You dont deserve this. Haihh.

IDK what to do. What I know that I wont let you face this alone. I'll be by yourside in any problems you face. Just like the letter U and I kat keyboard kan wak? ;) I'll be the seconds in your time. Detik pun boleh! IA. You're a strong girl. Kalau lah org lain kan , hmm mana nak larat hadapi benda nii kan? That's one of the reasons I'm the luckiest guy in the world tau! Soo jgn jelous! Dieww titewww punyeww!

We'll take this as a test for US boleh kan wak? He's testing us because He bless us kan wak? IA. Again I'm sorry because you have to face this but Ammar akan ada bersama awak selalu okay? Your battle is my war , metaphorically. Err betul kan tu? Ada ke metaphorically? Ahh lantak lah , janji paham :P

Okay the DarkNight? Err okayyyy macam ni cte dia. Night is dark kan? If Dark multiply with Night means? Bukan batman tu. It means a darker night. Yeaaaa. To me tonight is a darknight for me. Why? Lantak lah hampa semua nak habaq apa tentang sayaww but rasanya setiap malam sebelum saya tidur saya akan dengar suara si dia di ganggang telefon saya. Mendengar suara merdu dia yg dia kata tak merdu tu. Mendengar celoteh dia yg amat bermakna tu tapi dia kata hanya celoteh yg kosong. Mendengar gelak tawa dia yg riang , ceria , dan yg mampu buat saya tersenyum tu tapi dia kata tak best tu. Mendengar goodnight wish dia yg amat bermakna bg setiap malam saya yg dia kata biasa je tu. Dan banyak lagi lahhh. Haihhh , malam ni saya tak dapat dengar semua tu sebab salah saya jugak. Padan dgn muka hang marrr.

Ammar minta maaf ye Yana? Ammar tadi settlekan duit nak bayar futsal. Tak cukup. Then balik belikan kawan-kawan saya air. Balik saya makan roti dulu sebab niat nak puasa lah esok. Lepas tu mandi solat semua. Saya dapat text awak pakai no. Wan tu buat saya senyumm lebarrr. Lepas tu seperti biasa , kantoi dgn kawan-kawan. Haha. I know you're angry with me sebab balik lewat. Awak risau ammar penat esok. Nak study lagi kan. Haihhh. I'm sorry sayang :( Hmm biar lahh padan muka kau marr. Dapat balasan kan? Haa elok lahh , baru serik kan? Padang mukooo mu marr! Well tu lahh sebabnya darknight. Biasa kan , malam saya lahh paling berseri-seri because of a girl named Nur Liyana Amira. I'm sorry wak. And imissyou

          Saya sayang awak sangat! <3

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Sorry

Well today was'nt one of the best days I had in mind. IDK why? Ahh life has it's up's and down's kan mar , so redha je lahh. I slept with a smile on my face last night. I woke up in the morning to perform my Subuh and sudah tentulah semamai yg boleh sampai terlupa kejut kawan-kawan! Sorry guys. CTU class was..? Dull? IDK , the whole class was like boringg? Eyy dah la tgh rindu ni , pastu boring lagi. Payah wehhh. So I took out my notebook and scribbled her name all over the place. That put a smile on my face :) Mamat was deep in his sleep beside me -.- so it's my job to be his warning alarm?


After class , I went to the food court for lunch. I waited for her to text and she did. Baru bangun! Haha , salah siapa lah tu kan mar? Well , another smile came :) Then balik rumah la nak pergi solat jumaat. Pergi dengan Yeh on his motorcycle , and on the bike I texted her too , sambil membonceng! Haha! Sampai lah tiba di masjid. Then after friday prayers , me , Yeh , Amer and Adirul pergi sunway sebab saya dgn Yeh nak cari beg. Amer nak betulkan xbox and Adirul sibuk je. Haha.


Lama jugak cari beg , tgk pulak org ni duk berdating org tu duk berdating. Panas je den ni hawww! Korg tgu lah! >:| After I bought the bag , teman Adirul makan kejap. Then , went straight back home sebab nak main bola! I called her sebab saja nak suruh dia pesan tu pesan ni. Elehh suka hati saya lah! Saya suka! After we hung up , another smile came :) Then I played football , saya tgu je bola kat depan , konon striker la kan? Tak goal pun. Haha.


Then balik , Zuhair pulak tetiba ajak teman dia pergi jumpa awek dia kat poly. Aih? Apahal kau pilih aku Zuhair? Ramai lagi ni? Siap offer nak belanja lagi. Okay lah tu. But saya tolak jugak. Bukan apa , kang aku tgk kau duk berdating ngn awek kau , tambah lagi la rindu kat awek aku! But after dia pujuk beberapa kali. Okay. Pinjam kereta Cinaw , pergi lah. Fitry , Eman , Hafiz dgn Cinaw ada sekali. I felt guilty because I did'nt ask her permission first. I'm sooo sorry. Dorg ajak duduk same table with Zuhair's girlfriend and her friends but I told Fitry I don't want. Fitry kata , ' Hang juai mahai lawww '. Ahh say what ever you want. Saya taknak!




Then after dinner balik. Oh and she called me and I told her about me teman-ing my friend tu kan. I felt very guilty sampai nak apologise pun cuak. Then she asked ada other girls tak? I said ada. And suddenly her voice changed. I knew that she was not okay with it. Ammar tak buat apa pun wak , tgk pun tak! Betul! Then she hung up. A few minutes later she called , I was like :DDD and she told me she's stuck in a jam in a basement with a lot of cars. Another smile :)  Tapii urghh risau beb! Serious , dah la agak lewat. Aduiiyaiii.




After balik kemas rumah. And saya mcm org gaji. Saya je buat kerja. Terima kasih kawan-kawan. Memang stress la cte dia kan? Jemur baju aku , basuh pinggan aku , kemas aku. Mmg nak emo la kan? But I kept my calm and thought about what'll happen later on. SKYPEEE with her, Wc weh! Ahhhh best! After a long day , the remedy'll come soon! Then dah siap kemas nak online la. Ada kawan pakai laptop , so bagi lahhh. Amek broadband je and pinjam laptop member lain. Bawak masuk bilik blkg and nak skype! But the connection there was like s**t! Seriouslyyy the stress is rising and rising. Tetiba pulak laptop member tak boleh pakai. Mmg f*** la kan? Pergi jugak pujuk kawan nak pakai laptop sendiri. Pakai and still the connection was like urgh!!


Then it became slightly better , I got to wc with her and her cousin. I was quite shy. Haha. But seeing her in the monitor couraged myself. So wc-ed. But it was quite annoying because it keep's on DCing. Oii tolong la! Aku rindu sama dia wehhh! Tolong laaaa. Then I went into my room as my friends dah blah. And it's better there but still -.- Seeing her face in the monitor , seeing her smile , ahhhh priceless :') But I got to keep my cool la kan? Ada cousin dia wehh. Haha. Oh and one happy thing for me happened. I changed my relationship status! I was quite nervous but excited at the same time. Hehe. Lebiyuuuuu la wak :)


Then , suddenly she closed her wc and I knew something's wrong. I called her and I was right *bangga :P She had a problem with her mom and younger sister. Kesian diaa. I tried my best to give her support and comfort. Like I promised in last night's post :) Well IDK actually if it helps. I hope it does :S


She was quite okay after that. Then we talked regularly. I really wanted to talk to her. But honestly I'm very tired and sleepy. But I need to talk to her , imissher. And I was so stupid that I talked to her like I was drunk! All that sappy talk. It was childish she said. Haha. Okay that was quite a stab. Haha. I felt very embarrassed and quite sad. Hoho. Eleh , siapa suruh kau ngada sangat mar? Kan dah! Haha. Padan muka! Haha. Well I can't help myself. I miss her sooooo much and I felt very comfortable with her to do those things and I knew that she's the only one that can understand my foolishness tu. Malu gila wehhh.


Then we started to argue lah kan. Hmm basically it's my fault, I should've known that she was tired and aku ni plak pergi mengada lebih pulak en? Memang kena la cerita dia. Again we argue about ' us ' The argument that I hate the most. Tu lah kau mar , dah tahu tak suka jaga lah sikit perangai kau tu. Hmm , she's the one you ever wanted mar , so take care of her mar. Don't hurt her. Prove to her mar! Show her the love that you described to her. It's not just words to her , it means everything to her. And to you too jugak kan mar? Haa dah tu? Jaga elok-elok la marr.




From now on , improve ur self to be the best for her as she's the best for you mar. Stay by herside mar tak kira senang ke susah. Be with her , face her problems with her. Her problems now are for you to worry about too. Okay mar? You love her kan? YES ! very much! Well our coversation did'nt end well. She slept , kesian dia. Penat sangat la tu dia. I did'nt even get a goodnight kiss from her or a goodnight wish. Haa padan lah muka kau. Haha!

Well that's enough for this post , kalau boleh nak lebih dari post ni but nanti jadi novel pulak. Haha.

ILoveyou NurLiyanaAmiraMohdZainal

Forever <3

S.C.A.S.S.S.S.S

I'll try my best to be better sayang , and I'm Sorry