After class , I went to the food court for lunch. I waited for her to text and she did. Baru bangun! Haha , salah siapa lah tu kan mar? Well , another smile came :) Then balik rumah la nak pergi solat jumaat. Pergi dengan Yeh on his motorcycle , and on the bike I texted her too , sambil membonceng! Haha! Sampai lah tiba di masjid. Then after friday prayers , me , Yeh , Amer and Adirul pergi sunway sebab saya dgn Yeh nak cari beg. Amer nak betulkan xbox and Adirul sibuk je. Haha.
Lama jugak cari beg , tgk pulak org ni duk berdating org tu duk berdating. Panas je den ni hawww! Korg tgu lah! >:| After I bought the bag , teman Adirul makan kejap. Then , went straight back home sebab nak main bola! I called her sebab saja nak suruh dia pesan tu pesan ni. Elehh suka hati saya lah! Saya suka! After we hung up , another smile came :) Then I played football , saya tgu je bola kat depan , konon striker la kan? Tak goal pun. Haha.
Then balik , Zuhair pulak tetiba ajak teman dia pergi jumpa awek dia kat poly. Aih? Apahal kau pilih aku Zuhair? Ramai lagi ni? Siap offer nak belanja lagi. Okay lah tu. But saya tolak jugak. Bukan apa , kang aku tgk kau duk berdating ngn awek kau , tambah lagi la rindu kat awek aku! But after dia pujuk beberapa kali. Okay. Pinjam kereta Cinaw , pergi lah. Fitry , Eman , Hafiz dgn Cinaw ada sekali. I felt guilty because I did'nt ask her permission first. I'm sooo sorry. Dorg ajak duduk same table with Zuhair's girlfriend and her friends but I told Fitry I don't want. Fitry kata , ' Hang juai mahai lawww '. Ahh say what ever you want. Saya taknak!
Then after dinner balik. Oh and she called me and I told her about me teman-ing my friend tu kan. I felt very guilty sampai nak apologise pun cuak. Then she asked ada other girls tak? I said ada. And suddenly her voice changed. I knew that she was not okay with it. Ammar tak buat apa pun wak , tgk pun tak! Betul! Then she hung up. A few minutes later she called , I was like :DDD and she told me she's stuck in a jam in a basement with a lot of cars. Another smile :) Tapii urghh risau beb! Serious , dah la agak lewat. Aduiiyaiii.
After balik kemas rumah. And saya mcm org gaji. Saya je buat kerja. Terima kasih kawan-kawan. Memang stress la cte dia kan? Jemur baju aku , basuh pinggan aku , kemas aku. Mmg nak emo la kan? But I kept my calm and thought about what'll happen later on. SKYPEEE with her, Wc weh! Ahhhh best! After a long day , the remedy'll come soon! Then dah siap kemas nak online la. Ada kawan pakai laptop , so bagi lahhh. Amek broadband je and pinjam laptop member lain. Bawak masuk bilik blkg and nak skype! But the connection there was like s**t! Seriouslyyy the stress is rising and rising. Tetiba pulak laptop member tak boleh pakai. Mmg f*** la kan? Pergi jugak pujuk kawan nak pakai laptop sendiri. Pakai and still the connection was like urgh!!
Then it became slightly better , I got to wc with her and her cousin. I was quite shy. Haha. But seeing her in the monitor couraged myself. So wc-ed. But it was quite annoying because it keep's on DCing. Oii tolong la! Aku rindu sama dia wehhh! Tolong laaaa. Then I went into my room as my friends dah blah. And it's better there but still -.- Seeing her face in the monitor , seeing her smile , ahhhh priceless :') But I got to keep my cool la kan? Ada cousin dia wehh. Haha. Oh and one happy thing for me happened. I changed my relationship status! I was quite nervous but excited at the same time. Hehe. Lebiyuuuuu la wak :)
Then , suddenly she closed her wc and I knew something's wrong. I called her and I was right *bangga :P She had a problem with her mom and younger sister. Kesian diaa. I tried my best to give her support and comfort. Like I promised in last night's post :) Well IDK actually if it helps. I hope it does :S
She was quite okay after that. Then we talked regularly. I really wanted to talk to her. But honestly I'm very tired and sleepy. But I need to talk to her , imissher. And I was so stupid that I talked to her like I was drunk! All that sappy talk. It was childish she said. Haha. Okay that was quite a stab. Haha. I felt very embarrassed and quite sad. Hoho. Eleh , siapa suruh kau ngada sangat mar? Kan dah! Haha. Padan muka! Haha. Well I can't help myself. I miss her sooooo much and I felt very comfortable with her to do those things and I knew that she's the only one that can understand my foolishness tu. Malu gila wehhh.
Then we started to argue lah kan. Hmm basically it's my fault, I should've known that she was tired and aku ni plak pergi mengada lebih pulak en? Memang kena la cerita dia. Again we argue about ' us ' The argument that I hate the most. Tu lah kau mar , dah tahu tak suka jaga lah sikit perangai kau tu. Hmm , she's the one you ever wanted mar , so take care of her mar. Don't hurt her. Prove to her mar! Show her the love that you described to her. It's not just words to her , it means everything to her. And to you too jugak kan mar? Haa dah tu? Jaga elok-elok la marr.
From now on , improve ur self to be the best for her as she's the best for you mar. Stay by herside mar tak kira senang ke susah. Be with her , face her problems with her. Her problems now are for you to worry about too. Okay mar? You love her kan? YES ! very much! Well our coversation did'nt end well. She slept , kesian dia. Penat sangat la tu dia. I did'nt even get a goodnight kiss from her or a goodnight wish. Haa padan lah muka kau. Haha!
Well that's enough for this post , kalau boleh nak lebih dari post ni but nanti jadi novel pulak. Haha.
ILoveyou NurLiyanaAmiraMohdZainal
Forever <3
S.C.A.S.S.S.S.S
I'll try my best to be better sayang , and I'm Sorry
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